Top down, AC, with the coolin' system♣
Thursday, November 10, 2011 / 9:33 PM
Hello again! :)
Yes, I think I will be blogging more often from now on. But how many times have I said that now? Well, I think I should be because I have more access to internet and more time on my hands now that he's on afternoon shift.
I've been on tumblr more. :( Sorry blogger. And some of my blogs are on there too but this will forever be my more personal blog. :)
For the past 2 weeks, I've been working at
scosa's West Croydon Hub for work experience. I've been enjoying it so much and I've fallen in love with all the clients there! They're the nicest people you'll ever meet and there are so many different characters amongst them. One of the workers that has been mentoring me the most and giving me lots of opportunities has told me I've been doing really well and even told the big boss of the hub about me. Hopefully I'll get a job there too! :) It doesn't pay as much as the other job I wanted, but the smiles I receive daily would make up for the amount of pay I miss out on. :)
A lot of my friends have their year 12 exams right now but a lot of them have already finished. For any of you guys that still read this, congratulations on finishing! And for those who still have another day left, good luck for your exams tomorrow.
Anyways, I'm outtie now. Watching Hercules on video tape cause it's the bomb. LOL! I'm so cool. BUHBYES!
Lessons.♣
Thursday, October 13, 2011 / 10:30 PM
I haven't posted anything in so long. Haven't had time, haven't had anything to write about.
However, I've had a lot to think about, cry about, smile about, laugh about, stress about and be scared about. I've been so together at times,and a complete mess at others.
And it's all because of him.
If you love him, stay and fight. If he loves you, he'll do the same. Yeah, you're gonna argue a helluva lot. He'll get on your nerves and make you want to rip him apart. There's gonna be so many screaming matches and you're gonna cry a gazallion tears. But in between it all, you're gonna have the best fucking time. You're going to become stronger and stronger and prove to all them fuckers that said 'you'se are never gonna make it, you'll never work out. Don't be young and stupid,' that you can. Because you chose not to walk away just because of one little obstacle.
No one ever said it was easy and it sure as hell ain't. But that's just a part of the deal.
Misery Business♣
/ 10:11 PM
- Quietly leading a friend's relationship to an end
- Being the one that's always there for them
- But that's just because you're lonely yourself, not being able to keep up a relationship
- Cause you're still hooked on him
Good to know you're doing...well?
You're never going to change. Are you?
Open road.♣
Friday, September 2, 2011 / 7:58 AM
Hello, it's been a while hasn't it? I really should be blogging more...now that I have my phone which I adore.
I've started my Cert III in Disability Work course at KMC Community Service Training and next week would be my fourth. It's a very chilled class of about 10-12 and I'm only required to attend 3 days a week (Monday-Friday) from 9.30-2.50 but we usually knock off around 2 hehe. I've been lucky cause this week I only had to go on Monday, cause the unit being taught was for Aged Care. Yay! Just another two months or so and I'll be making money! Excited? YES!
My routine this week has pretty much been, wake up at 6 to say bye to fatty before work, sleep in with Elroy, clean, watch movies, run to the door when fatty comes home, shower, spend time (talk, puzzles, movies) and sleep.
I died yesterday. I don't even know why I'm up now and bloody 7.50am.typing this. Freak.
For some odd reason, probably the weather, I decided to go for a run. So I took the fat dog for a walk to warm up, and went for a run around thr track. Came home, and died. Then I had to wash the clothes, clean the kitchen and clean the room. So. Freaking. Tiring.
Anyways, I just yawned. That must mean I'm tired. Back to sleep now! : ) Buhbye!
♣
Sunday, July 31, 2011 / 9:53 PM
It's been so long since I've blogged (on blogspot anyways), and I don't really know what to say. :\
Anyways, I've finally moved back home and it certainly feels weird. Not seeing Nam all the time, not having a fat little face greet me every time I wake up & step in the door when I come home and the biggest change will be sleeping alone every night. But it's all for the greater good I guess. Nam's starting work and so should I as long as I get that job however small and shitty it may be. Then I can pay for my own study at KMC training and complete my Cert III in Disability Work which will give me a rewarding job with only 2-3 months of studying. :3 I can't wait til the money rolls in hehe.
Ah, it really does feel weird to be back at home. I can tell it's going to take a lot of time to settle back into, but hey, I can see my parents more often and maybe that fatboy will appreciate my presence more. :D
Money's been on my mind a lot lately, and here's the things I can't wait to spend on. Yes, I have made a list already, not yet prioritised though.
- Mine&Nammy's Nissan NX - window tint, new tail lights, upgrade sound system (front speakers & cd player), spray paint etc.
- Another car. Hopefully I'll be able to afford a Holden Astra convertible or my dream baby WRX Impreza. If not, then any decent car.
- SHOPPING SPREE!
- Melbourne roadtrip at the end of 2012.
- Save up for a house (in the very far future).
Yes, that's a lot of money. Which I doubt I will be able to save up asap after work but hey, dream big right? :)
I'll blog more tomorrow, so nighty nights & I'll speak to y'all who are still on blogger & read this soon.
Comeback,♣
Thursday, June 9, 2011 / 5:49 PM
It's been a fair while hey? And for that, I apologise but I haven't had any decent internet time to go onto my blog. I'm not supposed to be on today, but my parents are taking me back to my second home a tad later than planned. So here I am, with free time at last! :)
What's been happening?
Well since the last post, I've pretty much moved residences and now live with my boyfriend. You'd think that I'm a bit young, and that I should be at home and that I understand but honestly, more positives than negatives have come out of this. Being at home, my family always had arguments and I never had a sense of independence. Now, we've learnt to appreciate each other and the time we spend together and I've learnt how to handle things on my own that I'd never be able to do if I was still at home. It probably isn't the preferred choice for most, but it's definitely working for me.
I've applied for my TAFE course and I have my TABS test next week which should be easy breezy and soon after my course should start! :) Excited? Yes.
Oh, and this may come as a surprise to a lot of people but I've finally learnt how to save up and stop spending so much on pointless material things, despite how much I love the feeling.
You know what else? You know how everything thinks I'm a big time slacker (which I'm not denying)? Turns out I love the hard labour on farm, which isn't so hard. It's actually pretty fun. A full week of work on the farm stops me & Nam from having sooks at each other over stupid things and also allows us to get to know each other with all the chit chat we do while working. Yep, quite loving it.
There's not much else for me to say considering everything has pretty much been summed up in those few, tiny paragraphs. I guess I'll find more to say when I can go on more often hey? :) I hope this little update is good enough for now.
I'd raise my white flag, I'd raise it for you.♣
Tuesday, April 12, 2011 / 1:15 AM
I haven't blogged in .. ages. I feel bad, but I really don't know what to write about. So, I'm just going to gank the survey's off Gamen's blog! :D Rawrrawrrawr.
1) Go to iTunes and list your top 25 played songs.
iTunes is connected with Nam's phone so my play counts aren't on there, and neither am I at home much listening to music for it to keep a record off so I'll just use my phone. :)
Far East Movement - Don't Look Now (ft. Keri Hilson)
Far East Movement - So What
Far East Movement - White Flag (ft. Kayla Kai)
Far East Movement - Like A G6
Far East Movement - If I Was You (Omg) (ft. Snoop Dogg)
Far East Movement - Rocketeer (ft. Ryan Tedder)
Far East Movement - She Owns the Night (ft. Mohombi)
Far East Movement - Fighting For Air
Bruno Mars - Fire
Neyo - Over My Head
Rod Michael - Knight In Shining Armor
Dr Dre - Kush (ft. Snoop Dogg & Akon)
Nicki Minaj - Moment 4 Life (ft. Drake)
RL (of Next) - 4Eva
Varsity - Domino
Drew (of Varsity) - Like I Always Do
Jagged Edge - Let's Get Married (ft. J.D. & Run DMC)
Keri Hilson - Knock You Down (ft. Kanye West & Neyo)
Usher - Hey Daddy (Daddy's Home)
Neyo - One In A Million (ft. Jermaine Dupri)
Jessica Mauboy - Saturday Night (ft. Ludacris)
New Kids On The Block - Single (ft. Neyo)
David Guetta - Who's That Chick (ft. Rihanna)
Gucci Mane - Spotlight (ft. Usher)
Thai, J.Reyez, IZ, Lil Crazed & Tommy C - Girlfriend
2) Something you are scared of admitting.
While I'm writing this I have Vanessa with me, and considering she knows everything about me because I've told her things I've never told anyone else.. I asked her what she thinks I'm most scared of admitting and her first & only response was that I'm scared of admitting she's Jesus cause she can walk on water.. (quote Traphik).
Honestly, there's nothing I'm scared of admitting so I don't know what to say for this.
3) Write about TRUST. Do you trust too easily? Do others trust you? What do you do if someone breaks yours?
Trust is the foundation of any relationship; whether it be between friends or lovers. Family I see as an exception. Trust is a delicate thing and the amount of trust someone can give & have varies from one to another depending on their natural selves and the experiences they go through.
I've been told by many people that I have too much of it and I trust too many of the wrong people way too easily. I don't know why I do it considering I've been hurt by the consequences time & time over again. But that's just how I am. When I meet someone, I don't make them earn my trust, it's just there for them the moment the friendship begins and even when they break it, it'll always come back just as strong.
Others trusting me? I guess they do because quite a few people confide in their problems with me and come to me for advice. It's nice to know that people do trust me but if they don't then I'm not fussed.
Like I said before, if someone were to break my trust I would be upset and try not to trust that person as much. But the amount of trust I had in them will always stay the same and no matter how low it sunk after they broke it, I know it'll go back to the same level it was in the beginning.
4) Describe what you wore today.
Black & grey.
Black 'no fcukin' worries' top, dark grey jeggings, black heel-less boots, black trench coat & grey scarf. :)
Typical winter outfit and that's what I adore about winter (apart from the days&nights meant for snuggling up); the fashion.
5) Post your favourite quote.
I have way too many quotes that I like to only post one, and there are none of them that stick out to be my favourite either. I'll tell you one of my favourite people to quote though! Lady Gaga, she's so amazing.
This isn't really a quote but it's been one of the things I've been quoting a lot lately from Kevin Hart's stand up comedy acts.
"I took a deep breath, I looked at my friends.. I was like IT'S ABOUT TO GO DOWN.
Well, my mum told me to tell you
To mind your own DAMN MOTHERFUCKING BUSINESS BITCH.
LITTLE STUPID BITCH.
LITTLE DUMB TEACHING BITCH.
TWO PLUS TWO NOT KNOWING WHAT THE FUCK IT IS BITCH.
CROSS-EYED CRYING DOWN YOUR BACK FAT FURRY ASS BITCH!
LONG TITTIED NO NIPPLED HAVING ASS BITCH!
The shit that was crazy that my friends was running in the background like
OOOOOOOOOOOOH, HE SAID SHE AIN'T HAVE NO NIPPLES!"
.. I actual cried from laughter while writing this.
6) Most cherished memory.
I don't really have one to be honest. Vanessa says it's the day I met her though, /shrugs*.
No actually, now that I think about think about it the first vivid memory that pops into mind is that night I went fishing with Nam, Arng & Vanessa. Arng & Vanessa were chilling and Nam stood up and hugged me and before I knew it our feet were moving in unison. I heard Arng say, "look at you guys slow dancing and shit, that's cute," which was when I realised we were actually doing it so I turned on "I'd Do Anything" by Azn Dreamers which suit the mood completely and we kept going til the song ended. It's memorable for the fact that it was my first dance, it was under the starry moonlit sky and next to the water. :')
7) A letter to anyone that you are scared of saying to their face.
I'm not scared of saying anything to anyone, but these things I want to say.. I just can't anymore because I won't get the opportunity to. So I guess I'll write it out now in hope that they may come across it.
#1; You were always scared of me replacing you and every other person I got close to threatened you and you were scared, especially a member of your own family. Keeping that in mind and knowing how it felt myself, I told you that I never would and til this day I never have. That spot in my life will always be yours despite the fact we may not speak anymore or have anything to do with each other. I miss you dearly and I cry when I think about how things are different now. But like I've said to you, I'll always be here and all you need to do is talk to me.
#2; I don't even know what went wrong between us. Well, I guess I have an idea but I wouldn't have a clue whether it's true or not considering you avoided explaining it to me. You were such a close friend to me and I put my complete trust in you when I swore to myself I'd never trust another soul. And things were good. We'd spend time together and we made each other happy. I told a friend I thought you liked me and you confronted me about it and you said it wasn't true, that you didn't and I shouldn't say it. But that was far from how you acted and that was when I started seeing you as the big brother figure I never had and I loved you that way. Then one day you joked about you having to move away because you had feelings for me which devastated me, and after we resolved that issue things were okay again. Then one day you just told me over the phone you'd only break promises to me and that I should go die. I still miss you so much despite what anyone may say about you.
