i would give anything, if i could look in your eyes once more (8)♣
Monday, July 27, 2009 / 5:29 PM
Song of the day :: Enrique Iglesias - Lost Inside Your Love (Te Amo)
Current Media :: Tv - The Latest Buzz
Current Mood(s) :: Alone. Sort've upset. Sort've annoyed and very irritated. Angry. Stressed out. Lost. Cold. Freaking freezing. /sighs.
Today started off okay, went okay, ended bleh. I got the bus stop and a certain someone was really happy, great sight to see to start off the day. Usually. But I dunno today I just wasn't in the mood for anything. =='
I walked to school today 8) and I wasn't tired ^^. I feel healthy =). Hahaha, losers let me walk alone, but good ol' buddy JamJam walked with me =]. Good fun dissing his fatness.. and we talked a little. It was okay.. enjoyable.
First double lesson of Science, I don't mind Science. I like genetics =). But I just couldn't concentrate today =S! Dunno why.. Oh! Hahahaha, maybe it's cause I stacked it up the stairs on the way to lesson.. hehe. I almost fell face first into the step ><'' Scary.. but I kept laughing at myself Lols. Luckily no one was around.. except lil Andy =].
Mm, then PE. Yeah I hate it. I forged a note =]. But stupid Mr. Dounas! So racist!
Mr. Dounas: 'You like maths right :D?'
Me: Hahaha, it's okay I guess? Why?
Mr. Dounas: 'Well you can work out the scores and rankings for our class. Then hand up the sheet to me tomorrow. That should be fine yeah?'
Me: Umm, I guess.
Mr. Dounas: 'Fantastic! I would like the sheet first thing during tomorrows lesson! :DDD'
Me: =____________='' okay.
Freaking hell! Just cause I'm Asian doesn't mean I like maths.): Just cause I can't say no to people. Grr. Whatever. Extra homework for me! Yay! Oh whoopeee! --''
Recess.. was really boring. I'll skip and go to French. The lesson went by so fast D:! And I did quite a decent amount of work.. so I'm okay with myself ^____^. Lmfao, I practiced getting used to calling Samuel JamJam. It's an awesome name ~ 8D! Since his older brother is Jared, his second brother is Josh, Carolyn & I thought we'd not exclude him and let him have a J in his name too =]! Jam! .. why stop there? Why not make the name a little cuter x)? Jamjam! Hehehe.
Lunch was .. Lol. I had an SRC meeting to go to ~ Oh! I'm doing the 40 hour famine ^__^. Everyone suggested I give up my computer and internet for a day. But we all know that ain't gonna happen ~ 8D! Mm, then I went quiet for abit cause.. I just didn't feel like socialising. I dunno guys, so much shit on my mind =='.
The bell went, and I headed off to Photography. In the lesson I changed the colours of an Autumn road horizon scene thing, and I made one for each season. ^___^. They're nothing special, but I like them, they're pretty =]. Mm, that's all I did in the lesson.. Then I spent the rest just sitting there mucking around.. Oh yeah! Frick man =='' These 2 annoying people in my class. I've never gotten along with and OMFG, they just kept on talking and talking and talking and I swear I heard my name a couple of times. ==' I know she was doing it purposely to piss me off.. but I can't ignore it for some reason T.T Grr to the effing max.
Lols, yeah.. then afterschool I went down with Dee and Johnny =). And they were talking about girls.. Johnny made me choose between his girlfriend,Carmen, and Deon's girlfriend, Belinda. Man! I really can't choose! I don't know Carmen well enough to judge her, and I didn't want to upset either of them. T__T Guys! They're both awesome in their own way, and they're a perfect fit for you too. So what I say doesn't matter! So stop pressuring me to choose x)! Lol....... then I called someone and told him to catch the bus to Rundle. But oh, guess what? They aleady left T______________________________T Frick sakes. mailto:JKSHD@(W&$*(%5E#%!_)*(_)$U#%*Q(Y*! SO much for always being there and never leaving me alone. ==' Yeahh.. then I got off at Arndale and sat there for a while thinking.. it calmed me down a lot and gave me a chance to clean up all the tears I developed on the bus ride. So I didn't have to go home all angry and upset looking and get interrogated by those so called parents. I sat there til I got a message from little cute boy, Alan Tran. Lol, 'Why so lonely?'. And on the bus, there he was, I caught that one home.. That bus ride was alright =). Alan's so fun to talk to, I don't know why. Hahaha, you're a little freakface you know =).
Okay, as for thoughts of the day.
- Admit it jilLy, you're on your own no matter what. And there really is no one you can depend on but yourself =). It's going to be hard but, like Kevin said, you can make it!
- But still -_______________- I don't like this feeling at all. I don't know why I'm angry. It's not a big deal. Just a bus ride on your own. For just one day. Nothing wrong with that is it? Gosh. Man up. =='
- Right now I feel like not talking to you at all. You're so gay. Sometimes you fully ignore me and don't even look at me once. Other times you give me your undivided attention... You've got me so confused.. I don't know what to do anymore and I just randomly break into tears =='! I hate that, I hate crying at school and attracting too much attention. Argh =='
- I'm so scared of hurting you ==' I'm so scared of losing you ==' .. it keeps me awake at night, thinking about things that won't ever happen. I'm..so..pathetic. =='
'I don't know how I'd ever live without you, & I don't want to know either.'
I don't know what's wrong with me. Really. What the eff. Go screw yourself. Why do you even exist? You've seen it for yourself, no matter what you do, someone gets hurt. All you ever do is cause trouble for others. Just quit it. You're such a screw up, Linh Gia Truong. =='
'♪♫; the rain falls, the wind blows
& my heart is breaks silently.
