News just in, my best friends are idiots.♣
Friday, July 31, 2009 / 7:05 PM
Song Of The Day :: Sum 41 - With Me
Current Media :: Tv - The 7PM Project.
Current Mood(s) :: Happy =). Cold. Pretty annoyed & stressed out. Yet still a little sad..&upset. Don't really want to be here, but don't really want to leave. Don't really know what to do (Y).
Today was quite 'alright'. Times where I didn't really feel like I didn't want to be there, and I just really didn't know what to do. It was really confusing ==' And I'm DREADING next week. It's going to be so freaking boring! Argh. But lols, yeah. In the morning caught the early bus with Steve Chang. AND AND! Later on! Steve Nham got on the bus! And he sat on the other side of the isle! So I was sitting inbetween two Steve's 8D! :L. But kitty seemed really tired today, so he slept on the bus.. and I decided to give him a rest and catch the bus today.
First double lesson Photography ~ 8D chyeah! I actually did work this lesson :), but I also had a lot of fun ^^. Just random photoshopping today hahaha. But then I was messaging Alan for a while which was fun. LOL! He seems like he wants to go formal with me, as my date! :L
Alan; Hahaha.. Adelaide High people be like : OMG! CBC GUY! LETS GET HIM!
Me; LOL! NO! It'd be like, Girls: OMFG WHAT A FREAKING CUTIEEE!! NO FAIR JILL D:! & then all the guys get jealous of you >;D!
And he didn't reply T.T Freakface.
Lols, then we had a single lesson of science.. which was pretty alright. I'm starting to get really into genetics! It's so interesting 8D. Lool, and we're only going to have one double lesson of Science next week =) .. but =( at the same time. I was really getting into it =='
Double English ~ I tried to do work! Like! I'm serious! I actually tried! And I did a little work.. I wrote like 300 words almost? But I spent a lot of the time reading through notes and that =/ Then I just got really distracted by music and started typing it out ^^.
Lunch ~ was alright. Someone was missing from the group so it wasn't that fun lols, but we did tonnes of random things. OMFG! Helen stepped on those sauce thingos xD and it squirted up ROFL! I swear she squirted some up her skirt!
One of the guys: INVERTED PERIOD FLOW!
BUWAHAHAHAHAAHAHA! Gosh, that girl scares me. But I love her >;D!
Mm, I skipped out on lesson 6 with Krystal and Samuel. Samuel was sitting there singing while Krystal & I were working on our masterpiece ~ 8D! Hahah I can't talk much about this, but all will be revealed soon.
Lesson 7 was maths and I was so freaking slacky! I just sat there screaming random things lol.. shall we skip? Yes, I think so. =]
Afterschool ~ I went to Ellis Park to wait for Helen + Samuel. And OMFG! I ran up to Steve and jumped, and hit my cheekbone on his shoulder.. ouch =='. It still hurts a little. Grr. Stupid shoulder in my jumping way ): Mm, then we went to Chinatown ~ & I really didn't know where to stand when we were walking.. so I just walked on ahead. And it's times like this I really don't want to be there, so I'd rather be off on my own. Lol, while we walking ther Andy made me scream out SNOO SNOO, like in Futurama, as in Sex. And these international girls turned around like WTF!? LOLOL, whenever I do something weird, a random person has to be there. ==' Stupid Andy. Lols, then we went to the bus stop and yes, on the bus ride, just then, that moment. I realised, my best friends are complete idiots. I forgot what they were laughing at .. but yes. Complete frigging idiots. But I love them most x)! LOLOLOOLOLOLOLOLHHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAH! Then we played the recordings of Samuel laughing and BUWAHAHAHAAHAHAHAAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAH! They are soooooooooooooooooooooooo funny xD! Ahh Gosh, gotta love Jamjams xD! Knows how to put a smile on ANYONEs face no matter what the situation. Thanks Jamjam =D!
Ahahaha, then when we got off at Arndale, and Andy left for his bus. Gamen msg'd and said some freaky dude was staring at her D: so we walked to her house.. and she was safe =). OMFG, while we were walking some random taxi dude was talking to us O__O I got so scared ><'! LOL, but then we went to the park where kitty went to play on the swings.. and LOL! I swear, sometimes he's more immature than I am. But it's all part of the cuteness & that's what I love about him n__________n'' HAHAHA, then we called Krystal a million times :L And when she picked up, she said she was naked ROFL, she didn't realise she was on speakerphone. :L Then after she finished showering we dropped by her house just to say hi :L Then we walked to my bus stop where I came home =)
& now here I am. *stands proudly*
Mm, so today was alright. There were so many moments where I felt like I didn't belong.. and I should just disappear. I make things more difficult and impossible for everyone when I'm there. Like.. they don't do something because they know I'll be uncomfortable. Actually, for a majority of the day, I just wanted to back into some corner and just sit there by myself. But if I did then someone would notice and try to force me to tell them what's wrong. Or those freaks would start telling me I'm emo again. LIKE FOR FUCKS SAKES, YOU SAY I TALK TOOO MUCH, so I SHUT UP, and you tell me I'm being EMO & DEPRESSED. LIKE ARGHJHASJKFETIUGBDFHBSD GET YOUR OWN LIFE ALREADY! =='
There're just so many things on my mind at the moment.. that I just don't know how to put them into words.. cause if I do then I'll just stuff it up =='
GARGH. My mum. Fucking. Pisses me off. SO bad. Both my parents do =='. Like, they do something on their OWN WILL, then after they complained that I asked them to do it. And they waste their precious time and energy doing it for me. I NEVER FUCKING ASKED YOU TO! FUCKING HELL. And you make so many promises and get my hopes up so many times. And you tell me to believe you because you are my parents and you never lie, and what happens in the end? I believe. And then? You NEVER end up doing what you said you would, when you would. And then you just make up dumb bloody excuses that you think I'm childish enough to believe. And you still wonder why I want to leave this place. If it weren't for your stupid arguments, lies and expectations maybe, just maybe, I'd want to stay. ==' The only reason I'm here now? Is because it's what my brother wants. He's the only one who's ever considered my feelings and needs.
Gosh. I'm getting sick of life ): I think I need a break..
'♪♫; i don't want this moment
to ever end
where everything's nothing
without you
i'd wait here forever, just to
to see you smile
cause it's true
i am nothing, without you
through it all, i made my mistakes
i stumbled and falled
but i mean these words
i want you to know
with everything i won't this go
these words are my heart and soul
and i want you to know
as i bleed my heart out to show
and i won't let go
thoughts read unspoken
forever in doubt
where pieces of memories
fall to the ground
i know what i did and how so
i won't let this go
cause it's true
i am nothing, without you
all the streets where i walked alone
with nowhere to go
have come to an end
