Trying to keep it together, trying to not fall apart.♣
Wednesday, July 29, 2009 / 6:39 PM
Song(s) Of The Day :: Yellowcard - Everywhere x)!
Natalie - Goin' Crazy
Utada Hikaru - First Love
Varsity - Right Back Where I Started
Natz Da Pinoy Rapper - See You Smile =]
Alexandra Young - Cold
Current Media :: Windows Media Player =) Nonstop music xD
Current Mood(s) :: Quite happy ^^. Stressed. Annoyed. Tired. Mm, but sort've .. feeling .. really .. confused. And lost. Don't really want to be here, don't really wanna leave either. Sort've, trying not to break down. Trying to keep it together for the sake of those loved ones. =] (Y). Doing fineeeeeee.
Woah, today was a good day! Surprisingly, I had a feeling it was going to be really gay =/. Mm, so, I got up early, but felt really tired. ==' but got up and had a shower, then got to the bus stop like 5minutes late and missed the early bus ): But it was okay since Stevian wasn't there yet either. :L Mm, then omg when the bus came, I was about to seat down on the empty double seat :3 .. but I looked back and saw this cute little babyface staring at me. And how could I resist? I had to go sit with him, but what a big mistake I had just made! He stunk like crap ): .. But that was cause he ran for the bus to catch it with me LOLOL. Still, GOSH ALAN TRAN! Learn to use deodarant or something! ROFL! Omfg, what a little tb ==' He was sitting there spinning his pen.. pissed me off so much! So I stole it, and might I add, IT'S A REALLY GOOD PEN! I do all my scribble at with it now x)! And then I walked to school with kitty =)
Lesson 1 + 2 was French, and omfg! I love having Darwin sit behind me! He's so God damn ticklish ROFLMFAO! And he has the funniest laugh! It's like, 'tehehehehehehe' in a really girly laugh! And he ain't fakin' it either! Umm, and yeah. I did quite a lot of work, so I'm proud of myself =).
Third single lesson was Japanese! And it was quite funny, I still don't remember or know what we even talk about.. But I had fun =] Like usual.
Ummm, double lesson after recess was English. It wasn't quite that bad.. I sat there reading the SATAC / Uni / TAFE books. But I still don't know what I want to be.. so I can't choose the subjects they need. It's so gay! They don't want you to stress, so they give you all this stupid PLP shit to do and then they fully expect and force you to know what you want to be in the future. Fuck sakes.
Lunch was mother freaking awesome! Umm, yeah I still can't remember what I did.. Wow, my memory is almost as shit as my eyesight and breathing =)
Last double lesson, wooh! Science. This lesson was quite fun xD! We had to tell what phenotype each person in our class has.. and that stuff. And it was really confusing, but it was really fun! LOLOLOL! But, ROFL, we had to see if the person sitting next to us had this 'Darwins Point' thing on their ear. And I made Samuel put his hair back behind his ear so I could check, AND R O F L M F A O ! He looked so funny! Then I pulled his fringe up to see his hairline, and GOD DAMN MOTHER CHUCKER! SAMUEL JAMJAM CHI LOC NHAM! YOU CRACK ME UP SO BAD XD! HAHAHAA!
Anyways, afterschool we took Ha Yeon to the optometrists to get his eyes checked out :). But on the way, we met SHADE! SHADEEEEE :D! And LOL Shade is so funny ordering bubble tea xD! He doesn't know what he's doing LOLOL. Ngaww! Poor Shade ): OMG! But he can be mean ): He said I was annoying and talked too much, and dared me to not talk for 5 whole frigging minutes! God damn! Hehe, still, Shade's funny. :L And we saw Charlie Hoban Holmstrom! I haven't seen that ranga for ages 8D .. first he said was, 'Wow, you haven't grown at all!'. >:/! Is that all people notice ):?
Lol, then we went to Rundle ~ and Ha Yeon got his eyes checked out :) Meanwhile kitty and I sat there being goofs ROFLROFLROFL! Omg, the 'tehe' emoticon. He wouldn't make that face! ): BUT BUWAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHHAHAA! Everytime he tried, either him or I would fully crack up laughing. Like.. ROFLMFAOLOLHAHAHAHA! :L! Then we went to buy him 2 jumpers :)! I got to pick them out ^^''. And then we went to look at frames for Ha Yeon and Steve tried on this ROFLMFAO pair of sunnies. Joking dude, you looked.. very cool indeed (Y). Uhhs, then we went to KFC, ate and then went to catch the bus. BAD NEWS! He's found my tickle spots T__________T It's going to be war from now on you whore. /daggers.
Oh, I almost missed my stop on the way home, I started daydreaming and thinking about stuff.. and sort've drifted off ~ Luckily someone got off at the stop after me. :L
Hmms, today? Today was good. There were moments where I didn't want to be near you .. and moments where I just couldn't stay away =='. Things were tough today, I think everything's starting to kick in again. /sigh. Oh well, I can't lose you. So I'm gonna try and fake the happiness, til it becomes real =]. For the sake of those around me..
And omfg! I'm so sick of these people that are so competitive in school. Like, okay, yeah, good for you. You're a good student who knows what they want to be in the future. GOOD FOR FUCKING YOU. I don't really care ==' Don't even try to compare yourselves to me. I mean, yeah I know, it's good to aim high and achieve everything. But that's just not what I want to do. ==' So yeah, just please stop pestering me about grades, careers and the future. Just trying to choose a career is stressing the hell out of me. So please, fuck off or something =='.
Anywhos, I guess I'm ranting on too much. But I have a whole bunch of lyrics on my mind 8D! So brace yourselves =)!
cause you're everywhere to me,
& when i close my eyes it's you i see.
you're everything i know that makes me believe,
i'm not alone..
ever since the day you walked away
& left me lonely and cold
my life just hasn't been the same, oh baby no.
when i looked into your eyes,
the moment that i let you go,
i just, broke, down.
baby if i ever get the chance to be with you again i would sacrifice,
cause the feeling that i feel within no other man could ever make me feel so right.
you will always be inside my heart
you will always have your own place
i hope that i have a place in your heart too
now and forever you are still the one
it's still a sad song
until i can sing a new song
you are always gonna be my love
even if i fall in love with someone once again
i'll remember to love, you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
it's still a sad song
until i can sing a new song
when you're with me, i get these feelings
and when you're not,
you got me thinkin' aboutchu.
baby, i want you with me.
cause right now,
you're the only one who makes me smile~
all i'm asking is a minute of your time
a minute of your life i just wanna see you smile.
i'm so cold,
so co-co-cold,
wrap your arms around me,
will you hold me tightly?,
its way to cold,
so co co cold,
baby it's freezing,
don't say your leaving
i'm getting cold
there's always something different going wrong
the path i walk is in the wrong direction
there's always someone fucking hanging on
can anybody help me make things better?
would she hear me? if i called her name
would she hold me, if she knew my shame?
your tears don't fall, they crash around me
her conscience calls, the guilty to come home.
