rolling dice
now i'm jumping on the questions again, losing all my senses again - i'm a rolling dice and i don't think twice, i gave my heart away
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Friday, July 24, 2009 / 10:16 PM

Yup, another blog =) Just have a lot of things on my mind atm .. lol.

One of them used to be a reaaaaaaaaally good friends. But then things happened .. and we weren't as close for a while. But afer things cooled down, we started talking again :) and we both realised .. we do actually still care a lot for eachother and enjoy eachother's company. So what is the problem? The problem is he has this other friend, who doesn't like me much. And quite surprisingly, I'm not fond of her either. Before I met him, they used to be really close, but .. she was like ice towards him and practically drove him away from her. She hurt him bad (N). And that's when I got to know him :) .. and I helped him work things out with her. From then on we were pretty close (Y). We'd have the best of times together. But then he was close with her again .. and we'd talk less and less everyday. Til eventually, we didn't talk at all. Months passed, and we talked again, and it was just random.. but it was fun, and it was what I was missing. We planned to see eachother sometime soon and hang out, and I saw him at the bus stops, and I wanted to hug him like we used to.. but he didn't. Turns out, it was because he couldn't. She'd told him he wasn't allowed to hug me anymore. What .. the .. fuck .. ? Who is she to tell him who he can and can't socialise with =='. I mean, I understand he means a lot to her.. but is holding him back really going to keep him there? You know ..he is my friend too. And I miss him a heck of a lot. I see him out and about now, and when I do, I really just wanna scream out and run towards him. Then just muck around and have fun. But next to him, or somewhere close, I see her.. and I have to just pretend it never happened. It kills. I miss him. =/


(8) Do you even know how much it hurt, when you gave up on me, to be with her?