Today was unplanned, unexpected and yet very satisfying :). Total NOT waste of a weekend xD Chyeah niggers :]]

So today I woke up, went on msn to see no one. Went for a shower, came back, no one ): So I sat there eating and watching Rules Of Engagement hahahas. Then got picked up and went to Saturday school (Y).

Maths.. we all just did our own separate work. I did my cheat sheet for Chapter 6 maths test. One piece of homework outta the way ! xD We worked all through recess! Ahahaha Ms Kat does a lot of random things.. she always tells us about it too :L And bitches about her students at Trinity college ROFLS. Yeah, Neil came in. Apparently he's awesome at guitar.. Acoustic music >;D! He just became a whole lot hotter to me ;)! But yeah.. was over pretty soon.

In Vietnamese today, we spent the whole first lesson discussing diary entries and in the second lesson we had to write one. Whilst discussing diary entries, I don't know how in the hell they got onto the topic about ghost stories O___O'' Ahahaha umm yeah..

Oh ahaha after Vietnamese, I told my sister I was hungry and she offered to take me to All You Can Eat. Like, CHYEAH NIGGER! I never turn down an All You Can Eat invite xD OH DAMMN YUMMO! Best meal ever :D.. maybe cause I was starving but yeah, TOTALLY WORTH IT! ROFLMFAO my sister is so Asian. She said I was 14 and made all my nieces and nephew like a year or two younger than they actually were. Later my nephew, Nathan, was like, 'I'M NOT 4! I'M 6 YEARS OLD! *holds up 6 fingers* 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, YEARS OLD! >:/' ROFLROFL. But yeah, good dinner :) Time with family too. See, I'm very well balanced :)

When we were about to leave, Anjii Panjii called and asked if we wanted to do anything. So I called Jams and Nya and they said, chyeah sure, anything. BUT THEN JAMS BACKED OUT. :L Oh wells, went ahead with it anyways :) Soooooooooooooo, I went to pick up NYAAAface and he met my niece and nephews ROFL. See, they aren't going to kill you. They held your hand and you ain't dead just yet! xD Ehehehe.

We got to Anjii Panjii's house and Kittynyaface went to make himself some food. LOL @ me + Anjii telling him how to make it xD Ahahahaha. Yeahh, then we watched tv while they ate :) Soon after we decided to go to HIVE. So we went out to the bus stop to catch the bus that never came.. LOL we walked to Foodland Bus stop for 254 which never came either. :L. Thinking it was a bit late now, it'd been a good hour I'd say? We walked back to Anjii's house. OMFG ON THE WAY BACK 230 CAMEE! Anjii wanted us to go to the bus stop, and so we did. But we ran seeing a stumbling, drunk hobo come. OMFG MAN! THAT DUDE SOMEHOW GOT IN FRONT OF US, WITHOUT WALKING PAST US! LIKE WHAT THE EFFFFFFF D:! Ahahaha yeah, after an hour of waiting in the artic winds and flooding rains, we went back home :) Went back home to a warm heater, snuggle blankets and a welcoming couch ^O^

Anjii offered me a jacket which would keep me warm. No shit it would, but I didn't take it. It's the same jacket Alex had. Yeah, him. Anywhos I ran down stairs with the blanket clutched in my hand and jumped onto the couch :D FUCKING WARM I TELL YOU! xD Kitty & I snuggled up watching Harry Potter while Anjii Panjii gamed on his new computer. :) After HP finished, we joined him and us three sat there watching one game and played random music :) Not much you say? Had better times you say? I DON'T FUCKING CARE WHAT YOU THINK, IT WAS AN AWESOME NIGHT I SAY! Time well spent boys :) Mm yeah, at 12ish brother's girlfriend came to pick us up and that is the end of tonight :)

Reflections upon today.. Today was further proof that things never need to be planned, to be successful. It only needs the right people :) ^^. I also proved to myself I could balance out family, school and social life in one day. :]! Proud of myself, I am ^^. Hehehes. Mm.. I didn't see it today. Good thing =) But I thought about it.. Bad thing.
I know you've probably noticed, I pulled back a lot today. I'm not quite sure why I did, I kept thinking, 'it's for the better.. it's for the better...' But did you know? Every time I did that, my heart would ache BIG TIME. I honestly don't mind being close with you, even if it's going to break me later. If it made you happy in the moment, who gives a crap what the end results are, who cares how you feel later on. I'm not sure why, and I'm fair sure it won't happen, but every time we're together like that on a Saturday night. I can imagine us just like that, in the future. No need for going out and partying, I'm very content with just spending nights snuggled up on the couch in front of the tele. Oh my God, I didn't just say that did I? You probably cringed reading that x). Hahaha, my apologies. But that's just how I feel.

I'm okay with letting myself down now, I'm used to it. After all those times it's happened, giving myself false hope, I've gotten used to the feeling. It's okay if it never turns out the way expected, nothing ever is, isn't it? I'm getting used to hiding things as well. The only way I guess you can tell is if you know me well enough. Or if you look in my eyes. :L. I'm getting used to putting on this act every day, with all the smiles, in the end I fool myself and start to believe my own lie. Whatever pain I have, it'll never really go away, no matter how hard I try. The only way, is to hide it and pretend it's not there, 'til I eventually start to believe it doesn't exist anymore.