rolling dice
now i'm jumping on the questions again, losing all my senses again - i'm a rolling dice and i don't think twice, i gave my heart away
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Burhrhh.♣
Monday, August 24, 2009 / 11:51 PM

I hate being cold to you. I hate showing you any sign of coldness. I don't want to, I don't know why I do. Is it in a girl? Is this the way a girl gets attention? She acts cold, trying to intrigue the male and keep him interested. It's not always the right way. How is he supposed to know this is the way you 'flirt'? What if he thinks you're pushing him away? And he ends up leaving. What happens then?
Yeah.. I thought so. I think we're all better off being straightforward.

Ahahaha Iono something like that I guess :)

I want you to know that I've not once, meant to be cold to you, in the ways I have been. I don't know why I treat you like that. You mean, more than everything to me. You've been such a great friend from the very beginning. But every now and again, I do something stupid that makes you feel bad after, thinking it's your fault. Please know, it never is. It's my insane ways of showing you I need you. It's probably me trying to prove to myself that you won't leave me.. even though I know this. I just keep trying to make the proof stronger, so it won't fade. I think that's it.. I know you mean well, in everything you do. And you don't mean to hurt me. Everything you do seems to make me smile in a special kinda way :).. I think this is where I fell. Fell for you.. Now I'm trying to figure out whether I fell in love with you, or with our friendship. It's a mistake people make quite often. They think it's love, and get together ;).. soon realising they weren't meant to be like that. And a friendship is destroyed and lost.

I love you :) I honestly do. No no no no no! I am not making it awkward :) I love you as my best friend :] .. even if that's not what I am to you, it's what you mean to me. You mean sooooo much it's indescribable! Where I find myself relating every beat, tune and lyric to you.

Okay okay I'm going to stop with this corny, awkward stuff. I think I'm finally going to go to sleep now x)

Goodnight whoever reads my blog :) I hope you all have a wonderful day tomorrow.
I'm hoping for the best. x