drop dead gorgeous.♣
Sunday, August 23, 2009 / 5:07 PM
I read something last night, that hurt.
I don't think I can trust you anymore.
I don't think I ever could.
But there was something about you that just made me believe, time & time again that I could.
& I gave into that belief.
I always treasured you as a friend I could I always depend on,
that I could trust you with everything I had.
Trust that you would respect my privacy and keep the things I tell you,
to yourself.
But every time, without fail, I would find out from others that you have spread the word.
I don't tell you that I know, I'm waiting for you to confess.
You never do.
Every time I doubt our friendship, you'd tell me that I mean a heck of a lot to you.
That you just wouldn't be the same without me.
That you'd be devasted if I ever left.
That you need me.
And that despite what others choose to think of me, you'd know better.
That you weren't like them.
You made me believe.
But I guess, that's just part of who you are.
You were pretty much like the rest of them.. but different somehow.
I still want you as a friend, I still need you as a friend.
But I don't think I'll trust you like I did before, not anymore.
I think I might even stop talking to you for a while.
.. & I'm not quite sure if you'll even notice I'm gone.
I'll miss you a fair bit.
It might break me down, more than I already am,
but it also might make me stronger.
