orange skies ♥♣
Tuesday, August 4, 2009 / 6:11 PM
Song Of The Day :: Sarina Paris - Look At Us Now
Hilary Duff - Come Clean
Yellowcard - Everywhere
Michelangelo (Of Varsity) - Just Hold On To Me
Current Media :: TV - Simpsons
Current Mood(s) :: Really tired. Sort've happy even though it's about wrong things. Really out of place.. Don't really belong. Really freaking confused. Bored. Stressed. Headache. Lonely.
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Before, I say anything.. I would like to say;
H A P P Y 1 6 T H
B I R T H D A Y
K I T T Y ! ! !
Hope you had a fun time todayy =)
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'as i sit with little to do,
my mind is filled with thoughts of you.
as i work hard throughout the day,
i miss your smile that's miles away.
as i lay down and try to sleep,
it's memories of you i always keep.
you must know this, my love so true,
i spend all of my time missing you.'
Just a little something something I found before. Lols. I dunno :) It sort've describes what I'm going through at the moment.. although there may be a few lines/words I'd change :)? Hahaha yeahs.
Today, 2nd day of the 99th Adelaide High and Melbourne Boys High exchange. Wooh. I swear some of those guys are really cute, but I don't feel like looking at them anymore.. I don't perve as much as I used to? I say I do, but I really don't.. Feels like I'm betraying someone.. :L? Lol. Stupid thoughts. ==' But yeah that's just how it is. Today was a quite alright day, some bits were better than others. Those others just sucked shit. I think there was even once or twice where I actually started crying a little? :L I love that no one notices these moments ^^ No sarcasm intended :)
Oh wells, in the mornining I went to the bus stop and saw the cutest guy sitting at my bus stop ♥. Hahaha, I miss seeing this sight every morning. I gave him his ID card & wished him a happy birthday :D & gave him a hug, which wasn't as big or long as it was supposed to be. And we sat for a while :) Enjoying the few moments of his company I would get til.. well.. a few hours later :L?
Double Japanese first up ~ ~ We didn't do any work.. Well our area anyways :L. We just talked about a whole lotta random craps. I don't even remember what anymore -_______-!
English single ~ we walked over to the Old Scholar's courts and watched a little tennis. I didn't really watch anything.. just playing around on my phone & texting =)
Recess~ I don't remember (Y). During PE we watched basketball and I got so bored -___-! I went up to the upper gym classroom and saw Kevin there ~ 8D. But then we went to watch debating in the hall instead. Lols, I sat in the back row of the balcony with Kevin, Thu, Chris, William and Derek. Heck yeah, awkward 2dm. Kevin was msning on my phone while I listened to music on Gamen's phone. Hahas, it was okay for a while, then I just got really bored =/
Lunch ~ was perty okay I guess, I can't remember what happened at all.. just a few random laugh moments. Hahah, then we had Football, which we apparently lost. But I left early to go pick someone up =)
I went to the bus stop next to Hungry Jacks to wait, & zomfg O_______O! This random drunk boung dude, walked up.. and sat right next to me. Sort've leaning over to me, and he was breathing really heavily. He stunk like alchohol and much more. I ran away cause I got really scared ><''
Then the bus ride was really .. long .. and boring & lonely. I just sat there watching the rain fall outside and wishing I was out there, and not inside the bus. Then at Arndale ~ I went to get cakies :) But they didn't have any ): So I just bought the cupcake.. and sat outside waiting for birthday boy to come. Omg, while I was waiting, this Arabic looking dude came and was giving me dirty looks ><' & when he walked past he was staring at my legs and trying to look up my skirt. /shudders. I don't like .. being alone .. as much anymore.
Oh wells, he soon came & I gave him his cupcake :). Next year I think I'll try to make him some instead of just buying them ^^''. We went to Commonwealth Bank and I waited while he was opening an account. Oh My Gosh! He looked so cute and nervous <33!>
We eventually got to town after the many calls YipYip decided to give me --' & welcomed Steve to his surprise birthday party :)! It was small, but it was one of the damn best we've ever had I reckon! :) Just a small close group of friends ^^. And yeah, food was eaten ;), pictures were taken & laughter&smiles were shared.
Bus ride home was fun too :) tickle monster ararara. &gosh! I just found my favourite tickle spot apart from your back! Your tummmyyyyyy! You make the most adorable laugh ♥.
Lols, when I got home everything seemed to be a mess & everyone seemed to be argueing over nothing. All this random noise as well.. I really didn't need that.. So amongst all your fights & arguments, I stormed into my room and slammed my door shut. Turned on my magical box and cranked up Yellowcard - Everywhere, followed by Bullet For My Valentine - Tears Don't Fall & Good Charlotte - Misery. Yes. It makes them shut up without me having to say anything to them. It's my way of doing things.
Right now I still have a headache from what I came home to & all the stuff that's been on my mind. Decisions to make, that I'm not ready to decide.
Today I felt so alone at school, it was so empty too. It was only the moments with you that could make me truely happy. I try my best to take my mind off everything, but even the teachers seem to be slacking off so I'm not forced to do anything --''
There's something I think I should do, but it'd hurt the both of us. So I'm not even going to think about it anymore.
There's places I've been invited to, that I don't want to go to anymore, because I don't belong.
People I know I should trust and depend on, that I just can't anymore.
I'm sorry guys, if you read this. It has nothing to do with you, really. None of this is your fault, it's just the way I've been thinking and my natural habit of getting depressed.
Remember how I usually finish off with lyrics?
I'm sorry, I'm just not in the mood =/
How weird.
I'd usually blog my favourite songs, but I've written up Yellowcard - Everywhere so many times now.
I'm sure you guys know it off by heart =)
