Talkin' 'bout 'ey now, 'EY NOW!♣
Wednesday, August 26, 2009 / 12:05 AM
Ararararah.. yes. I'm developing quite a habit for late night rants :)
I don't need you to make yourself uncomfortable, and force yourself to do things simply because it'd make me happy. Don't even use the excuse, 'if it makes you happy, then it'll make me happy.' I won't believe you. I know it won't be true. You'll just be disappointed anyways. Because I'll never stay happy for long, & I don't want to take the risk of you blaming it on yourself. I want you to do something on your own will, without my thoughts or emotions effecting your decisions. Don't feel the need to talk to me, and extend your responses just because it's what I want you to do.
Don't let me change who you are.
I can be a very selfish person, who gets spoilt a lot. If you let me get my way too often. I'll get used to it, and constantly expect it from you. What do expectations lead to? ..Disappointment!
Hurt me to the point where, I'm so hurt, any more pain you cause me wouldn't make a difference. Break me down all you can, while you can. Don't let me slowly repair and rebuild myself, and knock me down again. That makes you a cruel person. Yes..
I'd much rather you self-willingly be my friend, than because you feel it's your duty to. If you walk away now, I wouldn't blame you. I have many reasons as to why you would.
What is the purpose of this rant, you ask? Well, dear reader, I don't know either :) But maybe you'll find something amongst my jumbled words, that will reach out to you. Maybe, something.. I don't know hahaha :D
