Song(s) Of The Day :: Mario - Let Me Love You
Yellowcard - Everywhere
Taylor Swift - The Way I Loved You
Yiruma - Kiss The Rain
Claude Kelly - Uninvited
Chris Brown feat. Andre '"Dre'' Merritt - Erased
Varsity Fanclub - What I Really Wanna SayMateo - 'Til She Goes
Varsity Fanclub - Bad Habit
Unknown - Afterthoughts
Westlife - Why Do I Love You
Current Media :: Windows Media Player - Music ♪♫
Current Mood(s) :: Quite happy. A little alone. Lala singsong mood (Y). A little jumpy. Getting cold. Miss you ): Urhh, a little annoyed at certain things & unhappy about many. Faking so many smiles.
Ohhhh, I went with Andy, Gamen & Harvard to Hungry Jacks for brekky today.. really nice (Y). Then when I got to school I received my piano bag <33>
Started the day with Maths ~ which was quite lonely cause all you Asian nerds had to do Westpac comp (N). So I sat with Carolyn.. and did a bit of Chapter 6. I breeeeeeeezed through this chapter, chyeah. But the class was alright I guess, pretty boring, but an okay start.
Photography... gosh. It's so different without my boys there. It's so quiet.. and boring.. ==' I'm pathetic lol. So I sat there going through my photos and tried to Photoshop some.. Did like 2 or 3? They were okay.. I have no inspiration or motivation, or any good advice/opinions without those two T.T Grr.
Let's skip recess, poor memory you see.. Hmmms, I think I should start taking notes on what happens during my day, yes? No? Maybe. PE, I sat there doing jackshit. Mr. Dounas wasn't in a mood to teach either. He put on some stupid video about stress and the class just slacked off.. I sat there writing out lyrics (Y).
Lunch.. Interact meeting! Lol, Richard was at the doorway dancing. He's so cute sometimes :L. Personality-wise, I mean. Anywho's, Helen, Gamen, Chris & I have to clean up recycle bins tomorrow (Y). Sorry Madame LeDoledec, I'm skipping another single lesson :). Uhhhhhhhhs, then we sat outside talking about random shit. I seriously don't know what we do anymore. Hmmm..
Japanese. Helen & Gamen weren't there so it was just me, Harvard, Andy, Min, David + Danny. Lol, they made me play Naruto on PSP .. and they were surprised I won. Stupid David T.T always calls me 'shordie'. No it ain't even ShorTie. It's ShorDee. Gosh. And when he sees me playing games, he calls me Tomboy. ==' Leave me alone! =='! Lols.. then I attempted to do work .. and got quite a decent amount done :).. I was listening to music.. and Yiruma - Kiss The Rain came on.. A new favourite piano piece<3 someone ="="'.">
Afterschool, I walked with Helen, Harvard, Tumi and Chris to chinatown~ I got Qubic.. again. It's yumyum (Y). Hmmmmmsss.. then I caught the 254X home.. and guess who was on :D? LUANNN! He's so freaing.. grr.. so innocent! He's funny to stare at cause he gets all nervous :L. Hahaha, the bus ride I listened to tonnnnnnnnes of songs & thought about loooooooooooooots of things. I almost cried again. Almost. Again. Haha..
Oh, just to let you guys know: Luan gets 'hot&sweaty' listening to Leah Dizon. It's quite funny to witness. You should try someday (Y).
Mm, none of the boys can go watch GI Joe with me.. ngaw ): Guess I'm going to have to wait til someone downloads it or something .. /sigh.
ahaha.. today. Kiss The Rain made me tear up cause it reminds me of that guy who plays piano so much. The one I used to consider as a really good bro (Y), til he broke up with someone and ditched me altogether. It's really nothing cause we're still friends.. but it hurts sometimes to think about. We're so distant now bruu ):
Mmm.. I've been alone a lot lately. Surprisingly, I don't mind it. If I complain someone might try to accompany me. I don't want anyone else to do that. There already is someone. No one's going to take that place. Ever. It's simply impossible.
Without those boys there, I really can't do jackshit properly. I know, I'm a pathetic little loser who should learn to be more independent. Okay okay, yeah whatever. I can't wait til next week, til things are back to .. as normal as they can get.
Anywhos, wanna see what I did afterschool today? I tried on the new shirt and I was in a really good mood! ^^
heh, photoshop<3>
ohoh & the editing thing on my phone is quite awesome ~
wanna see what i did? :)
I don't know what to rant about today ~ there are sooooo many lyrics running through my mind I can't type all of them out.. & I'm guessing you don't wanna read them anyways.
But what the heck! Here it goes, just a few I can remember off the top of my head;
suddenly she's leaving..
suddenly the promise of love has gone.
suddenly ... breathing, seems so hard to do.
can't believe you planned it,
i got to know just a minute too late, oh girl.
now i understand it.
all the times we made love together,
baby you were thinking of him.
why do i love you?
don't even want to!
why do i love you like i do,
like i always do.
you should have told me,
why did you have to be untrue.
why do i love you, like i do?
i had a funeral, and i buried your memory.
six feet under the soil, it no longer haunts me.
made you invisible, so the pain would be unseen.
i'd rather be numb.
just when i think i'm healing,
you cut me and i'm bleeding.
you came uninvited, but you might as well stay.
no i wasn't trying, but i guess i kinda fell anyway.
i said never again, so why do .. always show up UNINVITED.
you don't see me the same no more.
it's hard to see the light with closing doors.
don't treat me like, like i'm invisibe.
your talk, with me, is not the usual.
we scream, we fight, saying things that we both regret.
and that's alright, that you could just forget me like that.
you never try, always taking the easy route.
never wanna work it out.
you wanna leave me.
you wanna be free.
i can't believe..
cause without you, baby i`m incomplete.
am i erased?
just a speck in the deep corner of your imagination.
i'm feeling replaced.
am i scratched out, erased?
part of you just wants me back.
all of me just wants you back.
looking back, reminiscing days that we had,
wishing i could bring them back, compromising for that.
it's true, contradicting what i would do,
if i didn't have thoughts of life without you.
first time around, lost and found was a fool for you.
cause second best is not what you needed.
last in line & i've been finding out what to do,
when you come back and i'm feelingn cheated.
let you go~ walk away
don't turn around, nothing to say.
before another lover is lost,
because i was just an afterthought.
should i just keep her love inside or,
should i throw it away?
my eyes close in the daylight,
so i can't see the empty spaces,
she's leaving behind.
cause she, makes me feel like i'm alive.
'til she goes.. she goes.. she goes..
i'm just trying to get better.
i'm steady, steady, steady pacing back and forth.
it's like i'm not awake until she walk through the door.
and maybe, maybe i'm going crazy
i can't believe i'm here again.
i'm steady, steady, steady when she looks in my eyes.
ready for whatever, when she's right by my side.
and maybe, maybe this love is crazy.
i wish that she was here again..
he is sensible and so incredible
and all my single friends are jealous
he says everything i need to hear and it's like i couldn't ask for anything more.
he opens up my door and i get into his card
and he says, 'you look beautiful tonight'
and i feel perfectly fine
but i miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
it's 2am and i'm cursing your name
so in love, that you're acting insane
and that's the way i loved you
breaking down and coming undone
and it's a rollercoaster kinda love
and i never knew i could feel that much
and that's the way i loved you
i say, i don't care
but it makes me crazy
when you're not there
i say, i don't need you next to me
say i don't need your touch
say you don't mean that much
say this love don't mean a thing
what i really wanna say is you stay on my mind
&i die everytime that you're not around me
what i really wanna show is what's in my heart
but it's nothing that stops, even love inside me
what i really wanna do is just scream it out loud
get the message through ~
what i really wanna say is
i love you.
why can't i say what i mean
why must i hide what i'm feeling..
i`ll tell you what i'm feeling baby.
