rolling dice
now i'm jumping on the questions again, losing all my senses again - i'm a rolling dice and i don't think twice, i gave my heart away


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can't you see you've punished me more than enough already, baby take it easy on me
Wednesday, September 2, 2009 / 5:32 PM

Song(s) Of The Day :: Ashley Roberts (of PCD) - Let Me Go
Thousand Foot Krutch - Phenomenon
DBSK - Hug :)
Martin Kember - Back 2 Him She Goes
Utada Hikaru - Close To You
Utada Hikaru - Apple And Cinnamon
Utada Hikaru - Come Back To Me
Current Media :: Windows Media Player - Music ♪♫
Current Mood(s) :: I'm trying my best to stay positive.. slowly but surely breaking down. Worried. Annoyed. Concerned. Surprised. Neglected. Scared. Alone.


Mm, today was better than expected :) Started off waiting at the bus stop.. did quite a fair bit of thinking there. I dunno what about though.. Hmm.. Then ahas yeahs we caught the bus (Y).. and had brekky at HJ's ^^. Mm then the bus ride to school was pretty funny as well ^^. s2

Ahh I had French first up! And might I say I am very proud of myself ^^. I did a lot of work :D and I understood almost all of it too! Hehes. Ahaha we learnt the simple future tense. Like.. I will, you will, he will, she will etc. :] And to accompany this topic we learnt horoscopes! Ahaha I was supposed to write a horoscope prediction for Samuel.. Oh Samuel & I are both ARIES! But he acts nothing like one :L. Aries = Fire Sign. We are aggressive, moody and angry people. He doesn't seem like it does he? ahahas.

Japanese next :) We went outside to do work (Y). But ended up just slacking off.. :L LOLOLOL Mr Dimitriou walked past and I said hi to him, then ..
Helen; HELLO MR DIMITRIOUUUUUUUUUUU!
\hides
Mr Dimitriou; \looks at her.
Me; Omg you doof, he can see you :L
Gamen; NO CRAP! Your legs sticking like right out!
Helen; BAHAHAAHAHAHA

Mr Dimtriou; LOLOLOL :L
Ahahhahas, yeahs :) This lesson was quite alright, shame it was only a single though.

Recess.. Recess.. I can't remember O__O. Ahaha but then I had English. I did do workkkkk! I wrote like 3 paragraphs :) Starting my 4th (Y). But we were in the library and Andy happened to be there tooo! So we did quite a lot of chitchat xD Hahas. Omfg -__- I was gonna ask Nathan about the work.. and he somehow took it as me thinking he wasn't up to date. Like what the fuck dude, stop thinking you're such top shit ==' Fuck sakes. I don't even want to see you as a friend anymore, not someone who looks down on me the way you do. Fuck you.

Lunch was fucking awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! AHAHA, I LOVEE watching the boys just running and mucking around with eachother, somehow puts a smile on my face no matter what mood I'm in. Quite frankly I wasn't in a very good one.. But yeah. ^^ It was really fun.. But I saw Krystal getting what I would call bullied. Yeah it turned out as innocent fun, but man those two just take it way too far. Like fuck sakes? I wanted to run in and help you but.. what if I was ruining what you would call fun? Iono girl, I'm worried about you getting hurt. I can't do anything though, I know you don't want me to.. Just watch yourself yeah? Lol..

OMFG YES SCIENCE! The best subject for me at the moment :) We did female anatomy today.. Man I'm so grossed out =='.. Ahaha Khairu was as well xD. Umms.. yeah then she showed us a picture of an ultrasound and Carolyn made me turn my head.. I saw a fucking head O__O MAN IT LOOKED LIKE THE GRUDGE. I WAS HEAPS SCARED ><' Lololol then yeah.. I like having science :) And afterschool I was supposed to meet up with Alan and pay for his haircut (Y). So we all went to chinatown. Ahaha the boys went to buy Wendys and I ran off to buy me some Nana's hotdogs and custard bun thingys from O-Bun Chef :) OMFG ON THE WAY BACK TO THE BOYS I WAS RUNNING AND JUMPING AND DROPPED MY FUCKING PHONE AND NOW IT'S SO FUCKING SCRATCHED IT AIN'T FUCKING FUNNY. ): I'm sad ): .. Ahaha but yeah turns out I didn't have to go for Alan cause he had to go home.. But I saw him on the bus anyways ^^ And all the other CBC boys! Cuong and Anjuu :] .. Ngaw Alan wasn't happy. Dude.. I hate seeing you sad, please cheer up for me kays? Bring a smile back to that happy face I love so much ^^. Mm anywhos talking to Cuong was fun .. :) & Anjuu was so fucking LOLOLOLOL AHAHA. :L I owned Cuong hell bad >;D Chyeahniggerr! xD
Ahahahas and we got off at Arndale so Anjii Panjii could go look for a Fathers Day Gift :) It was fun going shopping with them ^O^! OMG US AT THE TOY SECTION WAS JUST LOL! & eeeeeeeeeeeckkkk! I saw the cutest books ^O^! I want themmm ): LOls, yeahs, then saw Jams on the bus ^^.

Mm.. today was fairly okay to me, a lot better than I expected it to be. I thought I'd be avoiding you a lot, which I don't know if I did or not, you tell me? Lol. I find it hard to look at you and be alone with you now.. I can't help but miss the way things were. It's ouchies to think about it. I'm tearing up :L.. I really miss you.. It feels so distant now. Ahahas yeahs..

Ehhs.. the lyrics meant quite a lot to me today .. ♥ the ♪♫ (:

take my hand
don't let me go i can hardly stand
hold on to me
don't let go
baby we're soaring above the clouds
i don't wanna leave so
no i'm not gonna let you
let you let me go.

all the time the time i've been loving you
coulda known we would end up here
it took me so long to say the words
and to overcome my fears
cause when i see you walking hand in hand
i have to close my eyes
he breaks her down
i pick her up
and back 2 him she goes
he treats her wrong i make her strong
and back 2 him she goes
she goes...
why do birds, suddenly appear
everytime you are near
just like me, they long to be
close to you
why do stars, fall down from the sky
everytime you walk by
just like me, they long to be
close to you
let's not get started with the 'he said, she said'
sometimes things just don't go on as planned
started out so simple and innocent
so simple and innocent
chemistry like apple and cinnamon
like apple and cinnamon
the rain falls on my windows
and a coldness runs through my soul
and the rain falls, oh the rain falls
i don't want to be alone
i wish that i could photoshop
all our bad memories
cause the flashbacks, oh the flashbacks
won't leave me alone
if you come back to me
i'll be everything you need
baby come back to me
let me make up for what happened
baby come back, come back to me
i'll be everything you need
come back, baby come back to me
boy you're one in a million
one in a million ♥
on the bay side of manhattan she goes
shopping for new clothes
and she buys this, and she buys that
just leave her alone
i wish that he would listen to her
side of the story
it isn't that bad, it isn't that bad
and she's wiser for it now
i admit i cheated
don't know why i did it
but i do regret it
nothing i can do or say can change that