i'll be there for you, cause you're there for me too♣
Thursday, September 3, 2009 / 6:04 PM
Song(s) Of The Day :: Ashley Roberts - Let Me Go
Yellowcard - Everywhere
Michael Jackson - You Rock My World
Thousand Foot Krutch - Phenomenon
MGMT - Electric Feel
New Found Glory - Glory Of Love
Current Media :: GOMplayer - Friends
Current Mood(s) :: Quite upset. I feel empty. I'm not breaking anymore, I'm broken. I'm alone. I'm tired. I'm sick of everything. You're gay. I think everything is stupid. Fucking annoyed.
Today was perty okay I think. Think. Started off gay and ended gay as well I guess, but some pretty fun bits here and there? Lols. I caught the early bus today :) which was fun ^^.Kitty; '' So what's on your penis at the moment? ''Me; '' What? Penis Oo? ''Kitty; '' LOL, what's on your mind at the moment? ''ROFLMFAOS. Baka desuyo? Hai :) Mms.. more funny moments :) Can't remember them all but yeahs, ahahahas.Omg, lol I had Maths first up! Maths was pretty okay, I'm trying to focus a lot more (Y). I did a decent amount of work ^^. But yeahs slacked off towards the end and packed up like 10-15minutes early :) Funfunfun. We sat there arguing and complaining about this years badminton teams. What the fuck? Fucking Mulvihill signed up the OPEN B team as GIRLS ONLY, whilst other schools have like fucking senior guys playing. It's so unfair ==' She's so fucking stupid. Don't you want them to win? .. Then why the hell are you letting little fucking year 8's and 9's play? Idiot.Photography next :) It was pretty fun I guess. Lols, I don't even know what we did. I downloaded a few songs :) .. and yeahs. Did a little chitchat and yeah I guess it was pretty fun ^^ The photos I took the other day turned out quite okay toos ^^ Ahahas yeahs :)Recess umm.. was another okay moment ^^. I forgot what we did Oo. But I know we had fun :D? Lols and before I went to PE I bluetoothed like lols, one song? To kitty's phone and yeahs. PE wasn't as slow.. I did a fair amount of work (:! And we're currently doing Sex Ed. Lols.. Yeah.. nothing exciting, good thing it went by fast ^^?Lunch! We had an Interact meeting, for the first time in how long? :L It was heaps funny ^^ Hopefully I get the Vice President position! Like.. I don't mind as long as that retard Han Dol Kim doesn't get it :D ANY OF YOU HOMO'S VOTE FOR HIM AND I WILL KICK YOUR ASS!? KAYS!? Yeah. You better not :) Ahahahas then we went into the gym where the circus thing was on agains. FUNFUNFUN ^^ LOL DARWIN! Ffs :L:L. Mms.. yeah. Enjoyable :)Last lesson of the day! Japanese! Usually would be really fun, but it was gay. I was fine.. but Helen wasn't and that just got me in a bad mood. Fucking Masaki =='. GRR! Umms.. yeah. Then we sat around doing nothing? And towards the end she showed us Youtube vids of some guy doing a documentary on Kyoto tourism. It was pretty funny I guess lols. Most of the time me and Andy were talking about crap. I like talking to him, he understands :)AFTERSCHOOL! Caught the bus with Nathan, Harvard and Deon to town. Umms.. then I saw this really cute blondish Asian guy sitting on the steps, omgsh ^O^! Ahahahas. Mms, OMFG GUESS WHO I SAW TODAY TOO!? I saw JOHNNNYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! and and and ZOMFG! PENGUUUUUU ^O^! Man I haven't been out with those 3 boys for ages. I remember those town days :)! They were fun ^^. Ahahas then we went to Myer Foodcourt to meet up with Blondey and Kimberly :)! I scabbed his Salt&Pepper Squid ^O^! All time fav food yo's ;). Uhhs, what else? Then we walked to Kimberly's bus stop and Alan went missing Oo. He ran off the Eynesbury cause he was late rofls. Ngaww :) He was heaps cute though. But that was the end of him, he went missing for the rest of the day. :L (Oh look he just signed in :)). Johnny, Deon, Pengu and I then went to Qubic :) OMG SHADE WAS THERE! He ordered bubble tea D:! All by himself tooooo! :L:L. Lols yeah, then sat there talking a bit :) Johnny's obsessed with the puffy thing on my phone, and the pink cat on my bag. LOL HE'S SO FREAKING CUTE! He has this voice that makes him sound a little goofy xD Ahh Johnny Johnny Johnny :) Mms.. he still has it D:! Ahahas then after they left Pengu and I went to the bus stops. Talking with Pengu is fun :)! I haven't seen or heard from him in SOOOOOOO long! I also miss those days where him & I would just bum around town together hahahas.Yeah.. today was quite alright I guess. Just so many moments where I just wished I wasn't there. It's so hard to try to be happy and pretend you're okay, when you're obviously not and you know you can't hide it anymore. It's fucking gay as. Ffs. I had to run away.. quite often. I'm back into that habit where I release my anger by punching or kicking something? Preferably the wall? Lols. Yups, that is how I am yO :)I feel super empty and really alone. I can't find a purpose anymore. I think I just lost mine. What in the hell am I living for? I don't know anymore. Anyone care to help?I have an obsession. I like to figure people out, the more complex you seem, the more intrigued I am. Even if whatever I heard about you was bad, I'll still try to find out why you did whatever you did. I want to see it from your perspective. But if I hear one too many things about you, that I don't like then I will give up. What the fuck am I doing? What the fuck are you doing? Fuck sakes.Oh yes.. a couple close to me broke up yesterday. I think it's for the better, if that's what they believe then I will support their decision. But I hate the fact one of the reasons why this happened was because of her. I fucking hate her. I hate her guts. I hate her existance. Fucking ruins everything. She stole you from me. Not that I'm supposed to care anymore.. She's a threat to me and many others. If any of my boys were to speak to her, I know this may sound inconsiderate but I have this fear that she might take you away from me as well. It's just an insecure feeling I have. I really dislike her.I feel like raging again. But I can't know. I feel like my chest is about to explode. I feel uncomfortable. I want to lash out at something, but not now.. I can't.. This is fucking queer to the fucking max.and &! oh oh ! i'd just like to saygood luck for your interview on monday alan!
although i know you don't need it because you're sure to get in boy :D
