Left devasted.♣
Sunday, September 20, 2009 / 12:13 PM
Song(s) Of The Day :: Brian Seo - Long Distance Relationship
Brian Seo - Hello
Big Bang - Stay
Melissa Smith - I Believed
Lady Gaga - Papparazzi
Elliott Yamin - Can't Keep On Loving You
Elliott Yamin - Wait For You
RJ Helton - Missing Me
Story Of The Year - Until The Day I Die
Linkin Park - Leave Out All The Rest
Short Stack - The Back Of My Head
Unknown - Afterthought
Andy Quach & Cat Tien - Ngay Chia Tay
Sean Ray - Rock Bottom
Current Media :: Windows Media Player - Music ♪♫
Current Mood(s) :: Pushed aside & abandoned. Forgotten. Lost. Alone & Lonelier. Depressed. Annoyed. Confused. Scared. Teary. Cautious. Hesitant. Curious.
Everything's so different now..
Lols, yesterday was full of randomness. Woke up, got ready for Viet school and watched a few eps of Friends :). When brother in law came over and took us to Viet school, I arrived to see what 4 people in my class? :L. We used the 'it's the last day of school!' excuse so that we didn't have to do any work. Not that we ever do any anyways. :L. I sat there playing on Nam's iPhone 8)! I got obssessed with that Balloon Game.. and the Sliding Block game! And Sudoku. So technically I was doing maths stuff ehehs. Yeah.. and that's all I did for the rest of the lesson, all whilst the whole class and Ms. Kat were discussing really random things Oo.
Afterwards, I decided not to go to Viet cause I really just could not be fucked. So I went to Jasmine's house with Kimbo :). Her cousin drove us, and she's fair funny :L. Road rager LOL. In the carpark she was raging at all the Viet drivers around and it was bloody hilarious ROFLS. Yeahs, then we went to Jasmines house and after a bit her cousin drove us to Woodville. He's cool :). Ahaha at Woodville when we got there, Quyen came out and talked with us til a stupid teacher came out as wells T.T Fucking idiot made us go in and told us to go to our classes, and after the fucking 10th time of telling him we didn't go to their school, HE TOLD US TO GTFO? WTF. Idiot. So yeahs, we wandered around for a bit and met Quyen and Thien out back on the St Clair oval. We chatted for a bit and sung a little :D but then Andy msgd and I thought it was recess so I went back T.T! But no, so the teachers caught us AGAIN. Same argument happened AGAIN and yeahs. They went back in and we hung around for a little out the back of the hall. There, I saw ALANN :D and JASONN :D & DEONN :D Hehes.. then after they went in we saw ANJUU! He's an annoying one, but having him around is fun, he talks nonstop and does the weirdest things. :L:L. Yarhs. He was wearing bright red and had the emoest looking emo fringe ever. LOLOL. Yeahs. Then uhhs.. we went back out the front when it was finally lunch. They got free food and I stole an Apple Pie & a drink off Andy Pandy :DD. Ahuhs, then sat around and talked for a bit with all the Woodville people.
And when it was dismissal time me, Kimbo, Jasmine & Quyen walked to Arndale so Quyen could get her ears pierced. On the way there, we walked past this house and there was like a male voice horrifically screaming. Like, it didn't sound fun at all. O__O'' Got hell freaked out so we just walked faster. Ahahas, at Arndale we split off. Kimbo went home and I walked to Kitty's house. It was a quiet walk, I thought about a lot of things. When I got there someone wouldn't pick up his phone so I had to sign in on eBuddy and yeahs. We watched a little bit of Friends and later headed off to Jam's house. KENJII already left >:/. Lols, I guess we just hung around the computer all night in Jam's room. Ate and watched movies and youtubed. Yes :D We watched Fired Up! It's fucking hilarious, but a hell pervy movie ==' Lols, then uhh we did random things on Youtube and yeahs. It's all a blur cause nothing specific happened :S. But at the end of the night we stayed on Youtube watching Game thingoes on Youtube and yes. Later on Kitty's sister drove us home (Y).
Yesterday was pretty fun I guessoes :) but there was something missing.. and I don't know why. But I met an old family friend yesterday, QUYEN DANG! :L. Yeaaaaaaaaahs.
I feel like an afterthought.. and that's probably because I am. I'm just that girl on the side, that you run to when there's no one else. That you're only friends with because you pity me and think I need help. I feel unimportant to you. I don't know what I am to you. The way you've been acting, is just .. excruciating. I've been crying for hours on end whenever this thought occurs, which is quite frequent. What the hell am I doing..
Why does it feel like we're drifting apart? Why am I so depressed about this? Because I fucking need you, but I don't want you here unless you fucking want to be. And quite recently, it feels like you don't. Is it true? .. I don't know what to say. It's happened before with many people I've wanted to keep close.. and it usually always happens when their relationships have finally begun. Because they're all caught up in their own little worlds, it's like they don't need me anymore.. and as the days go by we speak less and less.. til eventually we become strangers and as you live on as if nothing has ever happened. I'm left here wandering amidst our memories trying to figure out what the hell happened. I don't want to leave our memories.. unless we're going to make new ones. But right now it seems like there aren't going to be any future ones, so I'll stay here where I'm safe and .. when it felt like you cared.
