Some things never change♣
Friday, September 18, 2009 / 6:39 PM
Song(s) Of The Day :: Nickelback - Photograph
Story Of The Year - Until The Day I Die
Linkin Park - Lying From You
Linkin Park - Breaking The Habit
Yellowcard - Everywhere
Coldplay - The Scientist
The Fray - You Found Me
Lion King - We Are One
Nick Carter - Funny Face
Current Media :: GOMplayer - Friends
Youtube - Husky Dog Talking - " I Love You"
Current Mood(s) :: Annoyed. Depressed. Confused 2dfm. Super negative. Sick. Throat hurts T.T; Yet at the same time, quite happy and in a positively neutral mood. But also very unhappy and mopey at the moment. Nothings right. I'm pissed off and I'm hurting. Abandoned and neglected. Lost.
ZOMG, I watched the awesomest thing last night, it totally made my day! It was a Husky saying ' i Ruv Wuu '! FREAKING HELL ADORABLE! Hehehes, I wanna get one when I get the money :) Wee ^^Okays, so to start off the day we walked to school. Felt heaps nice, sunny start to the day with friends. Even though there were 3 complaining lazy ASs's behind us, it was enjoyable hahahas. I feel healthier again! Just a little. Dear fat thighs of mine, please go away soon? :L.Rofl. We went to Photography and I completed a set piece of work today, I'm proud :D! Edited a picture from scratch and explained the Composition skills/rules blahblah. Okay, to those of you who did this work as well, it may not have been much, I agree, but I'm just glad I finished some work kays? Ahahaha yeah. Bad start, but all ended well :)
Next lesson was Science and we went through the work quite quickly. I mean, to me we did anyways, I had a mental blank .__.; But I managed to do all the work and yeahs. In the end I got it all, so good on me! Woo, I love Chemistry ^^;;Recess was quick. We were on the oval? Ugh, this ain't helping my hayfever guys =='! A matter of fact, a lot of you guys have it as well, so what the freak are you doing!? Goshies.
Like I said, I would choose anything over English. But fuck you and your stupid annoying curly hair, Ms. Spiker T.T I don't fucking understand you. Okay yeah you book the room, I get that, but so what? You can't use those fucking computer anyways because they've been reserved. Dumb fuck. Gosh. Anywhos, we roamed around looking for a computer room and then we ended up going to 42B. Lols, sat there Photoshopping the whole time and naming cute anime characters. Yes. I also ate my cookies :) Yumyumyum.Then we had lunch, what happened at lunch? I got raped by Jenna and attacked by bugs T.T; Grr. I got heaps tired ==; Lols. Uhhs, but yeah then we moved our group to a BUG FREE area! And we jASs + ht + Gamen sat there talking about boobs, and the guys talked about balls as well. ROFL, it is normal for breasts to be different shapes and one bigger than the other. Apparently it is also normal for one ball to hang lower than the other. ROFLMFAO, yes these are the types of things we talk about. (:
After lunch we were supposed to go to do recycling; but 1. we couldn't get the keys and 2. there wasn't much to recycle. So after a bit of running around doing random things we settled at the benches outside the language centre and sat there discussing more random things :L. In lesson 7, we went to the computer room to edit. Mostly just mucked around and yeahs. Was good fun :) Oh! Note to all Adelaide High School Girls! Wilson Lee 9V24, IS A FUCKING PERVE! :D! Lols, yeahhs. Oh oh, and Jenna gave me the first episode of Season 3 of GOSSIP GIRL! HEHEHE!We were supposed to go to Subway to buy cookies! But no, then yes, then no, then cbfs. So yeah just went to Chiantown to eat :) Walking there was fun talking about random things. Ahaha then we went to the old foodcourt where we ate at Domotachi! Nomnomnom! It was nice :) Then we went to Qubic :D and then caught the bus homee. Ooooh! I also saw JOHNNYYYYYYYYYYYY! Hehehes. WAHH! On the bus we saw Samuel's Dad, his Step-Mom and his LITTLE SISTER! FAAAAAAAAARK! SHE'S SO ADORABLE! ^^ So unlike him ahaahahas. Ngaaaaaws.Anywhos, today turned out to be fairly awesome. A little less acting. But I avoided someone today, something I thought I'd never have to do again. But yeah, fairly great day spent with great people (:But anywhos, I just watched the episode of Friends where Ross and Rachel break up. I see both point of views but I'm rooting for Rachel. Wtfreak? Okay yeah she has a male friend yeah? What's fucking wrong with that. Yes, I understand insecurities, but oh come on, don't you trust the girl? She has work, it means a fuckload to her and you should just support her. You go on a break and her friend offers to come over to accompany her, FUCK SAKES at least she didn't SLEEP WITH SOMEONE LIKE YOU DID. But I understand you as well ==; You just miss her and the distance growing between the two of you is causing you to become worried and scared. But grr, I just don't understand some people some times.
We had another argument last night.. but this one sort've solved a few matters, yet at the same time created more. I really.. really.. don't know what to say to you anymore. That's probably why I'm fucking avoiding you. You know I can't do it, you force me to try everything. That's not how I am and I really do not want to change, despite what you say. I don't want to change. When I do, I'll do it subconciously so it's natural, I don't want to force myself to change, even if it's for the better. Please stop asking me to. Did you know, at the start of the day I thought you were angry at me. I didn't have a clue why. You gave me this moody ass cold attitude that told me to stay away from you. But then you'd change and go back to the 'normal' you.. then change back. You're so unpredictable sometimes and so hard to understand.Okay.. I've thought about a lot of things.. about what I do and don't need at the moment. One of the things I don't need or even want to think about are loss and change. That's probably why I chose not to talk to you. I don't know how to react when a good friend is going to move away. It's making me think about whether I should or not be friends with you, since you're going to leave soon.. since it'll fair hurt when/if you do go. That's just the way I think. But no doubt about it, we'll be awesome friends :)You continue to lie.. and to lie.. and even though I've found out every single one of them you choose to hide it and deny that you'd ever do something like that, ever. It hurt like a bitch when I found out, but now it hurts even more that you'd say that and deny that you'd do that to me. Can't you tell me the truth? Or am I just not good enough?Everything's so one sided.. Love.. Friendship.. Everything.. I'm so tired of trying.
