Farewell.♣
Tuesday, October 13, 2009 / 9:41 PM
.. On the other hand I feel replaced.
But you don't see it, do you? ..
No, no you don't. Everything that was us is still there, the us just isn't me and you anymore. It's someone else .. and to see everything I used to have with you, be with someone else. It's just heartbreaking beyond explanation. Maybe this has been why it's so hard. Seems like nothing can be just our little thing that no one will understand anymore.. because it's not just ours. I hate seeing this day to day in my shitty life.
& truth is, all I want is for us to be alone so everything can be shared between us only again. So I can be reassured everything is still there beteween us. But that's just a little too selfish of me. I know it isn't right, not at all. But why can't I stop myself from doing it?
That's a lie too, I've manage to resist every single urge to take you away and be alone with you. I can't give into temptation anymore. You're the one thing I want but can no longer have. And I guess that's the way it's going to forever be. There's just no point in me trying anymore, it won't ever be the same.
Because truth is haha, you're never really there anymore. You have other duties and priorities that stand rightly above and before me. You've just recently entered a committed relationship and it's that time in life where we start to work out our futures. I have no right to tell you to stop all that and pay more attention to me.. and I'm not going to.
