& I just want things back the way they were.♣
Wednesday, October 28, 2009 / 8:17 PM
Song(s) Of The Day :: The Veronicas - 4eva
Utada Hikaru - Merry Christmas, Mr. Lawrence
Cascada Feat Dons - Everytime We Touch (HipHop Remix)
4Tune - Miss You
Elliott Yamin - Wait For You
Stevie Hoang - More Than A Friend
Varsity - What I Really Wanna Say
Varsity - Babysteps
Current Media :: Windows Media Centre - Live Tv - Masterchef
Current Mood(s) :: Depressed to the effing max. Confused, frustrated and annoyed. Pretty damn useless and helpess. Sick and tired .. Alone and lonely .. Lost, and empty. Everything seems pointless. Pretty pissed off at some things .. but .. there's just something that's giving me a hint of happiness.
Oh wow, it's only the third day of school and another two to go. It's about time I seriously put everything aside and focus on nothing but study and kittywhore. Exams are coming up soon, oh yay! =3= and so many research assignments are nearing the due date as well. The morning seemed to start off okay, I got a little shaky? But then PAULTRANG txt'd me and that just made me smilee! He rarely ever does :O hahaha and whilst I was texting him, ALANTRAN txt'd me too. I felt so popular this morning cause my msg tone just wouldn't shut up. Hehehe, Alan also txt'd me with lyrics. Wanna guess which? My sunshine :) .. that just made me so much happier and set my mood for the day ^^ Thanks bum :D
First lesson of the day wasn't so bad, I had French. Although I normally hate going, it wasn't much to complain about. Except for the fact that Samuel wanted Deon's earphones and asked me to text Deon for him .. and whilst I was doing so Madame LeDoledec took my phone. What a bitch Samuel Nham. Hahaha, but anyways we went to the computer room and did the exact same thing as last lesson. This time, I finished the whole sheet :D
In Japanese today, I didn't feel like socialising like usual .. and there was just a certain someone I still feel like I'm not ready to talk to .. so I just occupied myself with the workbook. It's been fucking ages since I've touched that thing .. and I thought I'd struggle a little bit .. but turns out I did fine, and didn't need any help at all. I'm awesome like that.
At recess, lol? Did I do something I didn't realise was wrong or something? Cause I swear .. I went through everything I did beforehand and .. I don't see anything that would have made you not want to talk to me.
Omg, English! I spent like .. an hour writing 3 full pages of writing. We had to plan a draft for our text response character essay on our Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet topic. Haha, I'm proud of how much work I managed to do today. With about half an hour to lunch, Zerner let us out to practice our scenes again. We got hella lazy .. and I fell asleep on Nathan for a few moments til the fatfrack jiggled grr. Then I managed to memorise a few lines and rehearse my scene with Gamen. Yupyup.
Lunch was pretty gay. That person seemed to be ignoring me again .. and his other person seemed to shoot me a dagger type of look. I seriously don't know what the fuck I did, do any of you have any idea? If you want me to leave why don't you just say something ...
Ohh, and Kevin punchpoked me in the stomach twice .. I had a bad stomache ache for the rest of the day. How gay.
After lunch, and last lesson of the day was Science. We started a new booklet on Metals and did a few experiments. Ms Paps did experiments which included pretty fire, lights and colours so that was pretty damn exciting and entertaining for me. Hehes. In the last 15 minutes we also had to do our own experiment and Carolyn and I managed to stuff up somehow. The test tube was so hot I attempted to hold it with the tong thingies .. and sort've spilt it all over my finger. I'm scared something's gonna happen now .. but it seems fine yo.
Hahaha, afterschool I went to the language centre to go get my phone and saw Madame LeDoledec on the way. She told me to go the office and yeah. The lady behind the counter said my phone was going off all day and I giggled lols. I went back to the language centre to meet someone but he wasn't there .. a million phonecalls later and I met him in front of the gym. Then Krystal and Jenna came and we headed off to town. The beginning was gay .. so I'mma skip that lol. Once they got their volleyball we headed to Myer foodcourt to get some food. Kitty had like 5 rolls of sushi .. whatta tubbykient *giggle. Lols, then we went to Morning Glory in the foodcourt, then went to the new one on Hindley street. Jenna took a picture of me with a big pink slipper on my head. Cause I'm cool like that bitch. Then we went to get a card for Jess, and the first one I picked out was the one that was chosen. Yay! Hahaha, then we stayed and looked a few more dirty cards .. and after we went home cause I was fair tired. Guess which sexy bitch I saw at the bus stop today? Ly! Hahaha, she made my kitty fat and fed him chippies .. LOL. After she caught the bus, we waited a while longer and caught our bus and headed home ..
Today was pretty bleh cause I just wasn't in the right mood .. I didn't have my phone to read over Alan's texts to cheer me up either. Things were pretty gay cause their eyes just kept giving me those looks .. I really didn't know what I did wrong today.
I don't have much to rant about in this post really. Maybe just a few things I noticed?
If you make a promise to someone, keep it and grant it with no regrets or hesitations. And while you are doing so, don't give them this shitty ass attitude either. There's no point if you aren't going to fulfil a promise without enthusiasm. Sometimes .. Nah I'm not gonna say it :P
Bits and pieces from the previous post .. I'm lost now. May sound cliche but like, I'm lost without you. I don't know what to do now .. I don't know where to go .. because I have nowhere to go. I miss you so so so so so much.
