I keep forgetting to forget about you.♣
Thursday, October 8, 2009 / 2:33 AM
Ahh.. that empty feelings coming back again. I know it shouldn't be, it's all coming back now in the friends and family department. Things seem to be falling into place now, so what's wrong huh? Your best friends coming back, it's a slow reunion but it's definitely coming back. I hope so anyways. The boy best friend seems more perfect now, more than ever. The family? Haha, things are never really perfect for long but you'd have to agree it's better now than before.So what is wrong?Hahaha, what did I forget to mention? Oh right, being me there has to be a 'crush' yeah? Well right now there really isn't. Hahaha vin, you're right about that. I really do feel like an empty, useless piece of crap without a someone being there.But you, it feels so different talking to you now. Has something changed while I wasn't looking? I've forgotten how nice it feels to talk to you now; that excitement I get from seeing you sign in or your convo lighting up. The way it felt to see you everyday and just be in your arms, not another care in the world. It's been a little too long. Very long. Oh how I miss you dearly. How I miss us dearly. At times it does feel like there's a little something but I don't let it get to me. Some of the things you/we do and say does make me want to turn around and head back to it all, but I can't. There's a reason why it didn't make it to the future right? :)My nightlife is usually spent browsing through others blogs and watching dramas/tv shows/animes/movies. Tonight I came across the blog of my ex's current girlfriend and I remembered. How great he was and I let it slip away. We died because of my foolishness. I guess I'm happy you let me go the way you did, and you didn't use any other cliche lines even if it seemed like it. Because I knew it myself we were changing and not in a positive way for us. It didn't feel the same anymore. Even now you still care for me like a sister, you always seem to know when I'm upset and exactly what to say. Hahaha, even if you knew it was because I missed you.' I love you, I still really do. Just, not like that girl anymore, more like a sister. Would you rather me have kept on lying to you and staying in a relationship with you? Or tell you the truth and help you move on? 'Yup, you're right. I still do miss you, a lot. But .. it's not right to say that I guess, I miss us since we are still the same people from that relationship, just with different feelings now.Hahahaha.. yeah these are my late nights when I don't really have anything better to do than sit and think. I really should go to sleep now since I'm dead tired. Might head down to the bay and hit the mics with a few drinks with KenCuong tomorrow :) but then again might not. Lols, might also go out and about with Kevin tomorrow if I'm not up for the bay and all. Haven't spent time with my old monkey in quite a while now, I do miss him :)ROFL, yeah I do fall for guys quite easily. It's all about the sweet talk, flirting and late night convos. I do get quite attached after, obsessive even. I don't know why, I know it'll just hurt me badly in the end to do so. I'm hopeless.Cause the sex was so good,
& your talk was so smooth,
That I, I guess I bought it baby.
Utada Hikaru - Taking My Money Back
Album: This Is The One
