I miss us, whatever the hell we were.♣
Tuesday, October 13, 2009 / 6:46 PM
Song(s) of the Day :: New Kids On The Block feat. Ne Yo - Single ♥
Utada Hikaru - Taking My Money Back
The Pussy Cat Dolls feat. Will.I.Am - Beep
Claude Kelly - Shell Of An Angel
Current Media :: GOMplayer - The Big Bang Theory
Current Moods :: Bored. Empty. Hurty. Confused. Stressed. Annoyed. Frustrated. Sad, kinda, dunno why. Empty. Empty. Empty. Empty. Empty. Empty. Useless. Helpless. Tired, of everything.
Today was the second day of school, and I didn't blog yesterday simply because I was too damn tired and I had an assignment to do --' Wanna hear about my first day back to school as well? Kays, here it goes. :)
Lols I woke up bright and early.. kinda hahas. Took a shower and went to the bus stop to meet that cute guy ♥, who came late. I thought I was like really late or something --' Gosh. Hahahas, mm, the bus ride to school.. nothing much happened I guess, but it was still fun? Then he got off early with someone and they went to go get his L's :D I got to school and slowly everyone started to arrive very soon :] It was fun in the morning, catching up with everyone again :)
Mhmms, to start off the term I had Science, awesome. We had a revision of what we had learnt last term .. and I thought I'd be lost since I was away for the last few lessons but surprisingly I caught up fair well! Chemistry =] Hahahas it was fun and I did heaps of work :D Proud? Haha yay!
In homegroup we had to do some kinda DECS survey thingo, so we went off to the computer room next door and did that then came back and just discussed random happenings over the holidays. :) Umms, then I moved off to PE. Daaaaaaaaaaamns, was it cold or what D: Like, I forgot to bring my trackies so I had to wear my bloody shorts --' Lucky we stayed inside. Since we wasted a whole lotta time doing nothing at the beginning, Mr Dounas told us to just grab a basketball each and shoot some hoops. So we did, for a bit anyways. Jess and Yvonne were talking about something I didn't understand, so I just stood there practicing bouncing the ball with my left hand :D .. I'm really unco xD
At recess we uhhs.. stayed inside talking a little and then went outside. It was so cold :( .. But I guess we talked a lot and had tonnes of fun :D I had a talk with Helen about a recent event that really killed me hahas. Glad to know I'm not the only one that doesn't understand .. Mms, recess was so short though! I hate how fast 20 minutes can fly by.
FRANҪAIS! Hahaha in the beginning we watched a umms a murder mystery thing. It had a sex scene and you saw ass. :L. It was pretty farked up thoughs hahaha. Yeah, then she gave us a vocab list and we had to find the meanings of the words she gave us. That somehow lasted a whole lesson. OH MY GOD! AND THERE WAS THIS GIGANTIC MOTH FLYING AROUND! LIKE FARK! Scared me ):
Hahaha at lunch a few of us were God damn high. We sat around near the lockers and just goofed around. Chris had a hole in his pants that he didn't know about LOL! Ummmm.. yeah a lot of random things happened that made us all pretty darn hyper. Hehes. OHHH! AND FREAKING HELL MAN! SOMEONE slapped me on the leg and made a huge red mark that wouldn't go away T_____T''! Hurt like a bitch as well.
Awesomeness, Photography :P Our Unit 3 work on Depth Of Field was due today .. and I managed to finish all of it! Even WHILE I was going freaking hyper along with the boys, not as much as them though. ROFLMFAOS. Yeah, they're fair dumb and goofy, but they're the best =P OMFG! HE SLAPPED ME LIKE ANOTHER 3 OR SO TIMES! My whole leg was freaking red .. and hurt so much I was going to cry ): Hahahas, I guess I'm just happy I managed to complete a whole assignment this time =]
And afterschool we went to Hungry Jacks ♥ and just chilled out for the rest of the day. It was fun yo, just catching up with everyone and talking about anything that comes up to mind. Being complete idiots :) Hahahas, yeah. Then we went to catch the bus and who knew, we saw the CBC boys as well. Didn't really communicate with them this time thoughs ahahaha. Kitty and I got off at Arndale so I could buy some stationary since mine's getting a little dodgey and he also needed to buy a bus ticket. Hehes, I bought Cosmo today! And like, it's so freaking boring .. nothing interesting >.> No sex stuff >.> ROFLMFAO!
Hahahas then yeah I went home, read it a bit and decided to actually focus on homework. I quit working on the PE assignment and headed in for an early night cause I was so tired.
Mm, sleeping early makes me feel way better! Don't you think so? Ahahas, yeahs, same morning routine and off to the bus stop :) We had to stand on the bus again .. ): .. but it was funny :D ~ Stereophobia ~ Hahahahas and mm.. guess that's about it? But yes :D Then arrived at school and people went through the 'Metropolitan' (Quoted from Samuel) magazine hahaha.
FIrst lesson today was Japanese! I guess all we did today was talk about subjects and Cosmo related stuff. It was so funny though! LOLS! And yeah, Mr Rehorek didn't really mind :) .. As long as we were being quiet .. which I don't think happened xD
In English, Zerner talked about the Romeo and Juliet storyline and more on what we're working on. We have to act out a scene from Romeo and Juliet and then write about our character.. >800+ words. Freak. Bleh, guess I'll be able to do okay in this assignment. At least it isn't gayass cinematography. Phew.
Recess! Was bloody cold! But I was lucky enough to have PE after so I changed into my warm trackies ♥. We were supposed to play indoor soccer .. but I just lied and said I had Course Counselling early :P OMG! Went for a little walk and came back and saw Carolyn and Samuel there! HAHAHA! Our whole class was waiting there so we just sat there bludging for a while .. Really stupid things happened but I can't really be stuffed typing atm ==' So yeahs. When I finally went up to choose my subjects .. everything went well :D Next year I am giving up my frees in semester 1 in order to get the Research Project Pilot over and done with. So .. the subjects next year?
- English (2 Semesters)
- Maths Studies (3 Semesters)
- Chemistry (2 Semesters)
- Psychology (1 Semester)
- Biology B (1 Semester)
- Digital Photography (1 Semester)
- Digital Art (1 Semester)
- Legal Studies (1 Semester)
+ Stage 1/2 Vietnamese (2 Semesters)
I might also decide to do a VET course as well .. so by the end of year 11 I will hopefully end up with 150 credits :) Awesome. My brother said those were good choices, and I can do whatever I want as long as they were the subjects that I wanted :D Oh, don't you just love your older brother ♥? I sure do :) Mines awesome, awesome-r than yours :D
Hahahas, yeah. Lunch.. lunch was uhhhs.. quite a blur by now. We had fun thoughs, foh sho. I can't remember much and really can't be fucked typing, sorry guys ==' Or whoever reads this. Trying to save up typing energy for ranting :D
In maths, Jenna and I didn't really do any work! We just sat there talking about really random stuff xD LOL, and we both left early to go to our 'Away Volleyball game' LOL! We went to Subway where I grabbed a cappuccino and we had to dodge Mr Gurr by walking around the back to get our bags HAHAHA! Then we went back to school and just sat around talking about the most random crap ever! It's fun talking to Jenna ^^ Then just before the bell went I caught a glimpse of this hot girl rushing towards me. And before I knew it I was on the floor ;D OH I WONDER WHO IT WAS ! ROFLMFAO! Of course, it was no other than Kimberly Banh :)
Talked to her for a bit and then went to the side to meet up with the homies. At Hungry Jacks I felt mopey for some reason lol. Is it still getting to me? ..It really shouldn't be ==' Bleh. Hahaha I sat on talking to Paul and Long on MSN for a bit and then listened to music, not really in a social mood yet. Then later Samuel, Helen and Krystal came and yeah! Went better from then on. Once again, random chitchat about absolutely nothing.
Seriously, I'm so confused about myself T^T I do agree with you vin that I'm getting better .. but still something feels not quite right. It's really gay .. I'm so sure of who I am and I do think I've grown up from who I was back then. But .. that apparently is only how I see myself. To others I'm still just that immature little shithead who doesn't think about anything. Like wtf, I've already told you freaks why .. and I've told you many times that I'm happy the way I am. I don't really care about other peoples opinions towards my lifestyle and that's true, but since you have some kind of impact on my life, your say does count. Why can't you see things the way I see them .. even though I've tried explaining it to you many times. And now I don't really know why I'm doing this, but I am. I don't want to think about the outcomes, because I don't want to stress about what's going to happen and result in never doing it at all. I wanna just take the risk and deal with whatever it ends in. There's no point waiting around wondering what's going to happen, when I could just simple do it and find out. Why don't you understand that? .. and continue to tell me I'm living the wrong way?
I agree with this line, I first heard it when I was watching BAMBI! Yeah, you know you've watched it too :D We all should have, as children :). 'Don't say anything if you don't have anything nice to say' .. something like that. But it's true. If you're on someone elses page or viewing someones work, if you don't like it you shouldn't feel as though you should post a 'hate' comment and tell them their work is shit. Or whoever they are is shit, because quite frankly, it's their page/work and they have the right to do as they wish. Yerh, this is my blog and I can say whatever the hell I want to say. It's my personal page, so fuck you ==' Yeah.. you do have the right to have your own opinion and you are entitled to the freedom of speech, but use it in a fucking humane manner at least. It annoys me so much sometimes when I come across negative comments on someones page/work.
What is this? Really. I don't see the big fuss about this drinking business. I know some of you may see it as a dangerous thing to undertake but like, freak sakes. I do have the right to do whatever the hell it is I want to do. Who the fuck are you to tell me I can't do it? If I can't do it then, let me find out the hard way for myself. Fuck sakes. Tell me something negative that came out of the first/last time I drunk. Nothing, right? I can't find one thing wrong that came out of it. I know how to fucking take care of myself and how to stop when I've had fucking enough. Yeah, I know you care but like, you should know by now I have a rebellious spirit. I don't like being told what to do and tend to do the exact opposite. Yes yes, I know you just care about me but .. you're really suffocating me. This may sound VERY cliche but what the hell, here it goes.
I'm like a fucking butterfly, hold on too tightly and you'll suffocate and crush me.
But hold on too loosely, and baby I'll drift away.
Yeah. Now if you understand that, good for you. If you fucking keep telling me what I can and can't do, soon enough I'll start disliking like you uber much, letting it all build up and eventually turn into hate. Not necessarily you, but the things you do. I know a certain someone who I already see this way. But yeah.. seriously guys, just back off a little.
Some people just get on my nerves so much sometimes. They're just so annoying and never seem to fucking understand or even give a crap about the people around them.
You.. are.. so.. ughh.. ==' I don't really know what's happening now. Well, I do but.. it doesn't seem to be like the way it is in my head. In my head it seems so much worse at times, and better at others. In reality it's just .. bleh. I don't even know how to say it anymore. But I'm so tired.. Title says it all I guess. I don't really know what we were, and what I tell people we are may just be a lie. But I really do miss us.
People are very inconsiderate and such hypocrites at times. At others they're just fucking bastards. All they ever do is talk and criticise others of whatever the hell it is they choose to do. Seriously, what the hell? How about you stop fucking talking about others and telling them their living the wrong way, and get on with your own fucking useless life, if you have one that is. I'm so sick of you cocky motherchuckers walking around with your heads held up high thinking you're so much better than the rest. Truth is, you're lower than dirt. What the hell gives you the right talk talk about others this way?
Bleh. I think I've ranted enough today. T^T I'm fair tired now and I guess I have some homework to do. There's only a term left of school and I better make the most of it. Studying hardcore like the good Asian I want to be, and party like a rock star.
Lyrics .. lyrics .. maybe later tonight or something if I have something to rant about, or if I feel like avoiding work :D Til then, laters yo.
