Life without you left me with a scar.♣
Monday, October 26, 2009 / 7:11 PM
Song(s) Of The Day :: It's My Life / Confessions Pt. II (boys) - gLee Cast
Esmee Denters - Getting Over You
Patrick Bunton - Young Birds
Patrick Bunton - This Beat Is What You Need (DJ Gollum Short Mix)
Story Of The Year - Until The Day I Die
Yellowcard - Everywhere
Aaron Carter - Let Go
Current Media :: GOMplayer - The Big Bang Theory
Current Mood(s) :: Neutral, but more towards negative. Neglected. Uncomfortable. Craving .. something or .. someone? Lol. Annoyed. Moody. Sick&tired. Lonely. Scared. Empty. Insignificant.
Oh woah hahaha, I haven't blogged in a few days.. but my weekend has been very eventful. I re-upped my blog from Friday since it got deleted somehow, I had to rewrite it on a word document cause it was such a great day that I wanted to remember. Hahahas, would you like to hear about my weekend?
Saturday morning started off fair gay. I found out certain things about a certain friend that make me feel like I don't want him as a friend anymore. I don't really understand how someone I saw as a close friend turned out to be one of those people who walk around bitching about me behind my back. Maybe I was blind? Haha probably.
Mm, had a little cry to myself over that and then headed off to Maths school. Rita was annoyed at me cause I told her I was leaving early to see a certain someone. But LOL, we didn't do any work at all this lesson. Ms Kat brought out some magazines and us girls just sat around reading that for the whole lesson. Of course on one condition, we had to have our text book out in front so any teachers who walked in wouldn't get suss. Lol, it was fun I guess. Then Alan called me and told me he was coming to Ridley to meet me and pick me up. Ngaw, :)
Hehes, after the cute boy came I let him catch up with a few friends he hadn't seen in a while and then we walked to the bus stop. It was sort've awkward and unexpected that my ex wanted to come along as well. But it all turned out okay in the end? I'm still a little bleh around him though. Lmao, on the way the little blonde haired noob went to sleep for halfway and then we sat there listening to music after. In town, we walked around for like I dunno, half an hour or so? looking for the bus stop. Dumbkient who organised the day didn't even know how to get there ): Waiting for the bus .. we talked a little and when the bus came I just sat there cranking up music from Alan's iPod.
Soon enough, we finally arrived at Harbourtown and the cutie didn't waste time at all! Went straight to look for shoes, t-shirts, cardigans and shorts. I did a little shopping myself and found a really nice bag :) at Cotton On, for only $10 so that was a bargain I was proud of :D Hahaha Alan also bought this really cute Spongebob Cap at Jayjays hehe. Well, since we got there late, Harbourtown was closing ): so we went to catch the bus back to town. But since it took so long we went to Red Rooster to eat. I made Alex cut all the chicken for me :)
After we finished eating, we went back to the bus stop where the guys did a little dancing and martial arts training that I wasn't interested in. So I just sat there and waited quietly :) Ugh, when the bus finally came .. we had a little argument over a friend I'm very protective of. Even though he's obviously okay the way he is .. I hate it when people talk about him in a bad manor. But yeah I cooled off while he was napping again.. We decided to go straight to the KWS bus stop opposite Rundle and catch the bus back to Arndale there. The bus trip was quiet, simply because I didn't want to talk to 'someone' and after he got off I could talk to Alan :) He's so cute I swear, his face when he's staring out thinking about something or rather. Lol, we both got picked up at Arndale and that was pretty much the end of my day.
Yesterday, Sunday, I woke up bright and early and took a shower and got ready. But lol, I swear my mum is a fag. She uses a loud voice when speaking to me, so my natural habit is to treat someone the way they treat me. So of course, I used the same volume of voice back to her and she told me off for being rude and said, ' Why do you have to scream? ' which I had to reply with, ' Uhh, well why did you have to scream? The only reason I screamed was cause I was copying you. Ffs. ' Then after that she tried to get all smart with me and lost :) Yeah bitch. Hahahaha, yes. After I got ready we walked to my sister's house where I helped prepare some food for my niece and nephews birthday party. I gave them their presents which they were all occupied with and stopped helping me making food ): I rolled like tonnes of spring rolls :)
Hahaha, at around 12:00pm the kids started to arrive and pwoah, they think they're teenagers or something. It's actually quite funny lawl. But yeah, when the kids got settled some family started arriving. Family I liked, like LITTLE AKIRA! God damn, she's so adorable. The last time I saw her was the end of last year when we went to Gold Coast. She talks so much now! It may be baby gibberish but it's the cutest thing you'll ever hear. Hahaha. Then soon enough it was starting to near the time I had to go pick up a few buddies. Luckily I txt'd the fat boy .. and turns out he wasn't going. So it was only kitty and Andy.
It was so typical of kitty to go game for some reason, but it was only with little kids rofls. Then we all went outside to eat cake :)
But anywhos, the whole day was really random and we didn't do much. Mm, but for some reason I found it enjoyable and not a waste of a Sunday? And oh, by the way, a certain someone looked very, very, very hot & sexy in his tab sleeved shirt ;D Yes you kittywhore.
Yeah, I'm pretty tired of typing now, so yeah that was my awesome weekend. :)
Finally, today. Today was fairly okay :) Woke up to normal routine and all. Fairly average. First up I had Science, Ms Paps wasn't here and we went to the computer room to start our projects. Mine's on detergent .. (Y)! LOL. But I did manage to write my intro and that's about it. Then I just sat around talking with Carolyn and Samuel for the rest. (Y)
PE was next, and I found out we have a new student. I can't quite remember her name :S .. but she's from Iran and seems fairly nice. Hahaha. In this lesson we only had to change our shoes, so that was good. We did archery! And I own at it :) but now I'm scared of getting shot by an arrow lol.
After recess, I had French and that was actually fun and a very fast moving lesson. We had the laptops and we were watching the L'oreille de coupee thing online. We had to fill in the gaps and missing words on our worksheet .. and ffs it's so hard. Whenever it gets up to the word he just speeds through it and you don't hear shiet. I sat next to Jess this lesson and it was pretty funny hahaha. She thinks I'm slow like her.. \shakeshead. LOLOL.
Photography was the last lesson to end the day. I dunno why but I felt pretty down when someone joined us. So I sat there pretending to be sick and all. Looked at a few tutorials and mucked around a bit on Photoshop. In lesson 7 we left to go do some editing. Which we actually did do :) I helped with the credits and all. We took a little walk to find Krystal. Lol yes, dunno what we did that took up the lesson but yeah. Kitty and I stayed a little after school cause we had to print the dvd covers and convert the video file (Y)
When we left the computer room we headed to Hungry Jacks. Didn't do much, the usual sit around and eat and talk that's about it. Bussed home and yeahs.
Average day, (Y).
I can't talk to you now, can I? I don't like people. I hate people. People that talk and bitch about you behind your backs. Then turn around and pretend they're your best friends. Seriously, get a fucking life. I'm sorry if I have a fucking best friend I'm close with. Because of all you people, I can't talk to him in public anymore. Fuck sakes, morons. I'm uncomfortable being around him now, because I have to hold back to so much. Ugh.
But then again, is it just me? Or is it the same for you as well? Hmm ..
Distance. Distance. Distance. Why? It kills. I don't like being or feeling far away from you at all, but why does it seem necessary to feel so now? Because we have to .. ? Gay.
Dreams are fair scary aren't they? Since they show the visuals of every bad thought in your mind. Once you see it, it's even scarier than just occasionally thinking about it. But right now, it's just depicting reality in an even worse way.
Omg, LOL, I think this may be the only month my phone bill has stayed within range. I barely text or call anyone anymore. I guess they're all busy with their own lives now?
One thing I've realised, and I hate. My best friends have moved on from me once they're in a relationship. Oh yay. Isn't that just great for me? It's happening all over again. Gaygaygaygaygaygaygaygaygay. 'You' can say whatever you like. You can tell me I don't need him at all to survive, that may be true but I don't want it to be. I don't find any reason to stay and live on without him existing. Fuck you, I don't care what you say.
Things are going down again. The chance of you moving on from me seems to be becoming greater. I'm scared it might actually happen ..
'♪♫; I used to love a girl,
Sometimes I still think I do.
Thinking about her makes me a little crazy.
She used to be my world,
How could we be split in two?
We were just like to peas in a pod.
I'm officially losing my mind.
Chasing behind her heart.
This just can't be real,
So I gotta let go, go, go
Cause she let go, go, go
So long ago, go, go
It hurts to move on.
So I gotta let go, go, go.
Cause she let go, go, go.
From my mind, my body, my soul,
I gotta let go.
