Say goodbye, thanks for nothing.♣
Friday, October 9, 2009 / 3:30 PM
Trust is the foundation of friendship.But I guess we have nothing now..
I honestly can't believe this. I never in a million years would have thought it'd ever happen with you.I don't see what I did was a mistake, cause like I said, I live for the moment and I got it. I had lots of fun and don't really regret anything that came out of it. Except for one, the fact that I trust you. I thought you'd be one of those kinda guys who'd be a friend no matter what I did. But just for one thing, you threw it all away and I'm honestly broken down by this.
You know what? I'm not sorry. Maybe I am though, maybe I'm sorry you had to get to know me and trust me, all for nothing. That's about it. I'm not sorry for what I fucking did because I fucking loved it.
There were a couple of others who were disappointed in me as well, but like .. they let it go because they're just happy about the fact that I'm safe and okay now.
You hate all my friends and I have no fucking idea why. They're such wonderful people to me. I don't know what they ever fucking did to you. I understand, why you don't like him. But the others? What the fuck did they ever do to you? They're always asking to get to know you because you seem like a great guy. I tell them you are and all, but now I don't see it anymore. I tell you about how they wanna get to know you and all, and all you ever fucking do is refuse and say you don't like them. Why? Just because? Because you don't? That's not good enough mate. Seriously, what the hell did they ever do to make you hate them like this?
I honestly don't know who you are right now. All those memories I love so much, the ones with you, my favourite ones, all seem for nothing now. Because with you, I thought this would be a friendship that could and would last. And now .. I don't really know what just happened. All I know is that I want you back, I want us back. I don't care what we're gonna have to do, but I want to fix this. I want to be your friend again, because honestly, no one's ever treated me the way you have. You were and still are the best. I honestly do love you, but I'm too scared to now.
