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Wednesday, October 28, 2009 / 8:02 PM
I miss you.
A whole heck of a lot as well.. but who am I now to tell you that? I can't just stop you from spending time with the one you want to be with, or take your attention away from her .. just for a little bit. But I can't help but miss you .. and everything that was. Although it never really went down the road I wanted it to, it didn't take the wrong one either. And what we had was simply fucking amazing.
Now? Now it's wrong for me to even talk to you apparently. I can't walk anywhere alone with you or just even be alone with you. Everyone's put in their effort recently to try and prevent it, and it's working. It feels like years since I've been able to talk to you like we used to. It just ain't the same anymore.
What's worse to me? Isn't the fact that this is all happening because of my so called friends, it's that you don't seem to realise it, do you? I'm invisible to you.. recently. That's the way it feels anyway, you have no idea how much this is killing me. Whatever you're feeling when you read this, is nowhere near to the extent of the pain I'm feeling right now. I miss you a whole heck of a lot, I do.
Is a little time alone, just us? Some quality time together.. too much to ask for?
Apparently it is. Lol. I won't complain anymore, I won't even show it. .. I probably will, but you won't see it. Because I won't be there. I'll be away in my corner balling my eyes out. I can't let you see these tears in my eyes anymore. I can't tell you what's wrong because you'll feel bad.. There isn't much that can be done about this either, is there? The only way I reckon things will get better is if we give everyone time .. I think so. And I'll wait, no matter how long, I'll wait for you baby ;D .. hahaha. Just .. if you forget me in this time, I'll understand? I understand that I was just an insignificant role in your life that just happened to be there.
