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Wednesday, October 21, 2009 / 7:33 PM
Song(s) of the Day :: New Kids On The Block feat Ne-Yo - Single
Utada Hikaru - Taking My Money Back
Current Media :: Windows Media Centre - Masterchef Australia - Celebrity
Current Mood(s) :: Annoyed. Pissed off. Depressed. Sad. Moody. Sick. Tired. Disgusted. Dead. Alone. Lonely. Lost.
Today was another fair good day :) But started off half an hour early thanks to SOMEONE who set an alarm on my phone, geez. Hahaha. In the morning again I played with Kittywitty's face, I swear to Buddha, he's so cute :) Don't you just love him? Hehes, I know I do :D What's that? You've seen cuter? FUCK YOU, blind piece of cowpoo. I'm not in the mood to take anyone's crap.
In the morning we had an assembly, prefects nomination speech thing. Some of the speeches were actually really good! And of course always, the corny mottos hahahas and the try hards. There were also those who were incredibly nervous which evidently showed in their voices, made Andy crack up laughing. Han Doi Kim. LMFAO. Seriously, don't you just hate him? Vote for him and you're gay, kay? I still don't know who to vote for. After the assembly and getting forms for Peer Leaders we headed back to French. It was a pretty laid back lesson. We just translated a few words from the vocab of that mystery crap she made us watch.
Japanese :) Helen and I were discussing girly things, then we ended up discussing a whole load of random crap with everyone else. I dunno hahaha, felt really sick this lesson. So yeahs, let's skip?
During English today, I memorised almost all my lines and queues! So yay for me right? Hahahahas. Now I just have to work out my expression and use of tone and voice. Eugh. No, I am not going to kiss him T^T Seriously, no. I feel like I'm cheating on someone even though I have no one :) I'm not going to kiss him. Mr Zerner likes talking a lot hahaha. Anywhos, I guess our little scene is going along well and all we need to do is work out the costumes and that. Chyeah.
Science! I came late and ahahas yeah. We went through the answers from the practice test and I got almost all of it right! So I'm proud of myself. *pats on back* That took a fair amount of the lesson, and we spent the last 15 minutes electing topics for our research assignment. Yet another one, that's four I have now. Japanese - Utada Hikaru & Japanese music. English - Same as Japanese. Science - Consumer Science; Detergents. PE - Tobacco! *sigh*
Afterschool kitty and I headed to town to do some window shopping; haha yes we're Asian like that :) Nice walk around for a bit.. ohh! And Jayjays still wins my heart hahaha, they have the cutest t-shirts! Lols, then we walked around a bit more and met Samuel in front of Zamels. Seriously, I want to buy one of my guy friends one of those awesome looking bracelets or dogtag necklaces, maybe get it engraved too ;D? Hahaha! I guess I found someone for the dogtag necklace :) Niceeeeeeeeeee! Hehehs ^^ Anywhos, then we went to grab some Boost and Oporto chips. It was fun, like really enjoyable just sitting there with the boys having fun and munching on yummy foods :D It was 'bout time we headed home so off to the bus stop we went! I saw Ly baby there :) just back from a date with Jamie :D Hahaha on the bus we had to stand and it was fair crowded! Bus ride was fun even though I don't know what really happened lols.
Today I got pretty fucking pissed off afterschool. Fucking family man. I know I don't like them at all, and I don't really want to. Don't try to tell me what you think they are, because they're not. Don't try to make me see things the way you do, because I don't and won't. I hate them and I shouldn't care, which most of the time I don't, but that doesn't mean I can't get hurt by the things being said and done around here. Ffs.
When I don't like you, I make it pretty fucking obvious and I damn sure let you know why with my actions. If I don't want to talk to you, believe me, you'll know when it happens. I advise you to just stay away from me and let me cool down and get over whatever reason it was. Don't pester me as to why I'm not speaking to you, it'll just make it worse.
EUGHH, today was gay cause you weren't a very big part of it. This is what makes me sad. I miss you a lot now. I really, really, really do. I can't though. I'm not allowed to. But I still do. I MISS YOU! You're the reason why I still exist .. why I'm still alive but you're not really there anymore. So does that mean my motivation and reason to survive is fading as well? .. Hmmm.
Oh oh this kinda makes me a bit happier too, I get to spend some quality time with my baby girl this Saturday. I haven't seen him in so long! It's been .. ages .. and I really miss him a lot too! Hahaha we're going shopping at Harbourtown :D How sexy ;D
I get the feeling someone is playing someone. You say over and over again that you don't love him anymore, but you can't just let him go and let him be. He has to be yours. This isn't fair on him, but who am I to say?
