You make it hard to leave.♣
Tuesday, October 20, 2009 / 6:25 PM
Song(s) Of The Day :: Varsity - Why Not Me
Dj Mystik - Look At Us Now
The Veronicas - This Love
Utada Hikaru - Taking My Money Back
Current Media :: Winamp(L) + Windows Media Centre
Current Mood(s) :: Fair happy :) Sort've still depressed. Confused & angry. Lost. Neglected. Unwanted & unneeded by you. Scared. Alone + even lonelier.
LOOOOOOOOOOOOL! It's true, good starts to the day makes the day even better. Hahahaha, I got to the bus stop earlier this morning :) and ended up catching the early bus with my kittywhore. Lolololol I dunno what we did but it was fun, and then we waited at Cibo for the rest of the crew to arrive. When they came we caught the 131 and got off at Subway. I grabbed a Hot Chocolate :D and Jams got his food. My morning was fun :D I discovered something new that drives me nutso! I'll tell you later :)
First lesson was Japanese! Mr Rehorek was talking about the work we had to do for a bit, then we all had to read out a line from the course book. After that we all pretty much started slacking off and talking about random crap. Oh and it's decided! Helen, Gamen and I will go bather shopping next week! Finally! Hehes. Should be fun ne? Then yeah, just talked about random crap :)
In English we practiced our lines (Y), I still can't remember mine THAT well, but I'm improving a lot! And I also talked to Kevin a bit during this lesson. He looked good :) his hair as well x] KEVIN :D Hehehes. Then uhs, yeah practiced lines a bit more and tried to memorise them.
At recess, I had GREEN TEA and for some reason I WAS REALLY HAPPY. ROFLFMFAO I have no idea why so yeah x)
I had PE after, and man I got so sweaty and gross! We played Lacrosseeeeee and the teacher said I improved a lot! I even scored a goal ^-^ It was so intense LOL! But yeah, I enjoyed it :D fun :D
Lunch was fucking ROFLMFAO crap. jASs+ht feat Gamen. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA! We talk about the dumbest crap, and do the dumbest things ever; things only we will understand :) Hehehehehe! It's fun :D LOL, yes :D
Last lesson to end off the day was Maths. I did do SOME work and I really did TRY :D but Harvard gave me his phone and I found a really funny clip that just made me full on LMFAO. Hahahaha Jenna left early and yeahs. Just sat around talking about random crap again :)
Afterschool I went to Hungry Jacks :D in the beginning it was a little bleeeeeeeh cause of yeaaaaaaaaah, but towards the end it was fucking awesome. OH OH! WHEN YOU SQUISH KITTYS CHEEKS AND ROLL THEM AROUND WHILE HE CLOSES HIS EYES AND DOES FISHY LIPS, IT'S FUCKING HILARIOUS AHHAHAAHHAHAAHAHHAHA! And afterwards, your hands smell really nice too :) Hahahha I love kitty =3 he's so adorable. Then we went to the bus stop and saw Jams there :D On the bus was fun as well LMFAO! They were waving to little kids in cars passing by .. to the point where the parents had to roll their windows up. HAHAHAHAHAHA.
Yeah, it's nothing much to you people probably, but it was fucking awesome to me. I went high quite a lot :).. but I was also quite down as well. Maybe I went high to cover up the negativity in me that was fighting to show itself? Hahaha.. maybe.
I try my best to believe you when you say comforting things to me, I really do cause I really want to believe it's true as well. But it's too hard to. When you said there was no longer any trust between us .. I was so hurt, and I guess I still am. It's so difficult to recover from. Because you don't trust me anymore, I don't know if I can trust you as well.. What am I saying? I know I can, but it's too hard to. When people say something negative and mean, they most probably mean it. But when they say something nice, after being mean then.. it's a little hard to believe? Because we all know people say nice things to eachother to make the other feel better, but they don't say mean things just to make the other feel bad. They say it because that's what they really think. .. I don't know if you get what I mean =/ .. I'm sorry, I really am. It's just hard when you don't really seem to take notice of me .. or seem to even realise I exist anymore. I don't really know what you want at times.
