rolling dice

now i'm jumping on the questions again, losing all my senses again - i'm a rolling dice and i don't think twice, i gave my heart away

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Thursday, November 5, 2009 / 9:49 PM

Because there're so many things I would do for you, there's an endless list.. I'd endure a million lifetimes of pain and suffering for you.
But you can't seem to do the same for me, not even in a friendly way. I know I don't necessarily have to do anything for you at all, well not this much anyways.. because we're just friends. I know that, but this is just how much you bloody mean to me. Mm, but what do you care? Right?
Why can't I change the way I think? All that I fucking get is disappointment. Why? Because I fucking trusted you to make everything better, you told me lies and gave me nothing but false hope. I tried to think as pessimisticly as I could, so it wouldn't turn out as bad as I thought and I wouldn't be feeling the level of disappointment I am right now, but something in your voice just made me believe you.. and gave me a lot more hope than I can handle.

But I'm so sick of it all.. I'm so tired of this all.. And you wonder why I say things like ' I want to die, kill me. '