Song(s) Of The Day :: The Veronicas – Revenge Is Sweeter (Than You Ever Were)The Veronicas – When It All Falls ApartThe Veronicas – 4evaDelta Goodrem – Can’t Break It To My Heart
Dj Merlin & Dj C-Bass – Everlasting Melodies
Dash Berlin – Till The Sky Falls Down
Jason Derulo – Whatcha Say (Acoustic Version)Tae Yang – Wedding Dress
Taj Jackson – Little Miss One More Please
Current Media :: Windows Media Centre – Live TVCurrent Mood(s) :: Sick. Tired. Exhausted. Annoyed. Depressed. Stressed. Upset. Unhappy. Scared.

Ahh so how did everyone go in today’s sweltering heat? I know I felt like complete and utter crap. I really should get my act together and study a lot more, but I know how many times I’ve said that before and never really succeeded in doing so. I stayed up til like 2am drastically trying to finish off my Science assignment and even though I finished and could normally stay up way later than this, I felt dead the next morning. But I still managed to get to school and through the whole day without that many mishaps.

First lesson to start off the day was Maths and Ms. Sipols was going through quadratic functions because for those who didn’t understand, and a few other topics.. but of course I paid no attention to this and just sat there talking to either Harvard or Jenna. Bahaha, though most of the time I was tapping away on my phone on Facebook with Jason and Paul :D &of course that’s always fun hahaha. Halfway through the lesson we had to change rooms though, because the air conditioner broke.

During homegroup and Photography, I was learning how to arrange a deck of cards in order.. I don’t know why though but it was fun. I make this clear though, I have no intention of joining in card games, kay? Hahaha yeah, that’s pretty much what I spent the whole lesson doing and I managed to arrange 3 decks of cards. Anyone proud of me? I know I am (:

PE today was actually okay, we spent the first half basically doing nothing although we were supposed to revise for our exam. I just sat there listening to music and looking through my notebook.. I think I needa buy a new one so I can revise notes for exams since this one is just so damn messy. Then after a 10 minute break, Mr. Dounas put on a video documentary about 6 teenage boys. We’d previously watched the stories of the first three boys and today we wanted to finish off the video. The first story was of one of those really rebel bad boys, Todd. He went down the wrong path and hung out with the wrong crowd, he went to jail and rebuilt his life from there. Next, it was Tom.. this was the story that got to me quite a bit. Tom was suffering from depression, and after hooking up with this girl he had really strong feelings about.. she left him and he went into major depression and attempted to commit suicide. Last but not least, was about… oh crap, I forgot his name. But it was his birthday and the boys decided to throw him a beach bash, before the party though they had a few drinks and yeah.. he was driving. Tom, from the previous story was in the front seat, not wearing a seatbelt and due to driving under the influence and dodgey roads, they crashed and Tom lost his life. It was actually a really good doco, and I do actually want a copy of it.

Last lesson for the day was Japanese and I did plan on doing some work. However, music is such a big distraction to me and I didn’t end up doing anything. Our little ‘rebel’ Asian corner sat there on laptops, each of us having a set of earphones in and cranking up our beats. LOL, because we’re cool like that yo. Mm, and soon enough the lesson ended with me and Helen singing a few songs from The Veronicas. How many years have they been inactive for? And I still love them like it’s their first debut, possibly even more now. Ohh, I also got everyone listening Jason Derulo – Whatcha Say (Acoustic Version). It really is one of my favourites :D .. and there’s a point Helen agrees with me on. In the bridge of the song, Jason adjusts his voice as if he’s singing and pleading while in much pain, it really does make you tear up.

Afterschool, I walked with the little brother a bit of the way and talked to him for a bit. I think I’ve been neglecting him a little, I should spend more time with him aye? Oh well, maybe this Sunday.. I can’t be sitting at home that day because things are happening and I’m just gonna get all moody. Lol, yeah. Anywhos, the whore and I went to town because I was demanding sushi. Someone likes making me laugh when I’m trying to munch on my sushi roll… and he was asking me why I was eating so slowly. GOSH! LOL. Then we went to Woollies so he could find some Custard Tarts.. and although we did find some, they weren’t branded so he refused to settle with them. And he calls ME fussy. I also got some bikkies to snack on :D, Arnott’s Monte Carlo, Milk Coffee and Teddy Bears. YUMMO. LOL, this was my childhood guys, yup. Mm, then we just caught the bus home and that was pretty much the end of our day.

First things first kay? I’m actually feeling really relieved now.. cause I don’t really know how I’d manage to get through the other option mentally. But yes, things are the way they are and I reckon they couldn’t be any better.

Oh yeah, Mr. Rehorek said Pokémon was actually a very violent and cruel show.. because they captured animals and used them for fighting. In a realistic human and adult world, yeah that is a very disturbing and not to mention disgustful way of life.. but I reckon that’s not the idea the creators of my childhood show intended to convey. Being a child was probably one of the best stages of my life, seeing things the way they are, there’s no more to it. No lies, no hidden messages, it’s all just straightforward. And to children, Pokémon is just innocent fun.. and it caused no harm because the trainers were always best friends with their Pokémon right? Even in a few episodes where the trainer treated the Pokémon like crap, the lesson learnt in those episodes were that it was wrong to do so. Adults, or as you grow up, start to over-analyse any situation and just make it even worse. There’s really no right or wrong answer, this is just what I think :]

Friends… what can I say? There’s not much really. From what I know, there’s only one that I can always, always count on. There’re others, that I do know would be there for me when I ask.. but when I don’t, I’m not included in their lives as they go about. And that one I know of, though I know they want to be around whenever they can.. they can’t.

Ffs, people who’ve known me for about a year should know this; when you tell me to do something, you know I’m not going to do it, I’m gonna fucking rebel against it because I don’t like being told what to do. Like a dear friend of mine said, ‘’I realised you were much happier and better off doing things your own way, so I just let it be.’’ Those who calls themselves friends though, it doesn’t bother me as much if they haven’t become aware of this, probably because we haven’t probably talked much.. or aren’t that close. But oh come on, being a member of my family, how do you not fucking know this?

Ugh, throughout the whole day I had the worst stomach aches and cramps. I’ve never had them like this before, a one off thing yeah.. but for the whole day. On top of that, I also felt so dizzy.. and at times like I was going to faint. Is something wrong with me? Idk, I’m really scared ..

Little miss one more please
Asking me to sing her off to sleep
One more lullaby is all she needs
Pleading for one last song from me
But even if I sing two more she wants three
And even if I start to sing so softly
Little miss one more please
Asking me to sing her off to sleep