The way you're playing this game makes me sick.♣
Monday, November 2, 2009 / 7:27 PM
Song(s) Of The Day :: Aladdin - A Whole New World
C-Jay - You Are The One
John O'Callaghan feat. Sarah Howells - Find Yourself
Varsity - Bad Habit
Varsity - What I Really Wanna Say
Varsity - Why Not Me
Current Media :: Windows Media Centre - Ch7 - Destroyed In Seconds
Current Mood(s) :: Stable. Yet depressed, unhappy and annoyed. Still empty. Confused. Frustrated. Pissed off. Lost. Sick. .. Also unstable. Lonely. Misunderstood. Aggro now. Sad too.
Today went by helllaaaaa fast for me, how was your day? Hahahaha I missed two busses in the morning purposely, because I'm rebel ;) LOL! Nah, a certain kittykat slept in and I'd rather wait for him and be late for school than catch the bus with people who I don't know are my friends or not. It was worth it .. I'd say. Guess who else I saw in the morning as well? Alan Tran :D and to make it even better, he handed me quite a few photos from his childhood up til now. And these few snaps have made me smile all day long. He's so adorable :) .. Maybe I'll show you some other time kay? LOL. Found out something interesting when I got to school, wasn't surprised but yeah. Talk about it later yo.
First lesson up was Science. You know what was gay as fuck? I got to lesson as soon as the bell went, so did the fellow Kontos twins and Ms Paps made us go sign in. Gosh. Lol, this lesson all I had was a massive headache from her voice ... but I managed to finish a prac experiment and all so that was alright. Fairly gay lesson though cause of the hurty head ):
This was one of my enjoyable PE lessons, even though I did jackshit :D We had Mr. Ellis as a relief teacher and we played Dodgeball. I barely got out like I always do and yeah, it didn't last that long but I actually sweated and stunk T^T grr.
After recess I had French and this my friends, was a day where I, Linh Jill Truong, actually did work! D: I know right. LOL. But if you really think about it, I didn't do much. Just went through the crosswords and that L'oreille Coupee sheet. I got all my words right :D
LOL, we had an SRC meeting at lunch and that was fun :D Hashan Mendis = Kevin Gee of MEAN GIRLS HAHAHAHHAA! If you knew him, you'd think so too :) Then.. walked around with my Krystal for a bit and sat with the group after that. Lol, seriously yo? Give up. I'm not going to retaliate but you're just pushing it honey.
What I thought was always the best lesson, was actually an alright lesson. I started on my tutorials .. and I almost actually finished it! .. But I forgot something at the beginning and that just fucked the whole thing up. GRR! .. There were also other people from the Aust Studies class in our computer room. Distracting? Yes.
Finally, the school day was over and I went to Hungry Jacks with the boys. I also bought this months issue of Cosmopolitan and a few packs of Orange 5 Gum :D Ohh, have you heard? My new goal is to chew through 100 packs of this gum just so my kittykat can keep all the nice smelling wrappers. ^^ On the bus I sat there reading whilst the boys played cards again.
Wow, this seems like a pretty short blog about my day excluding rants, compared to my previous posts right? Lol who cares. I have a shitload of complaining to do today, so brace yourselves.. :)
(I apoligise to you for the words I use about her, but hey it's my blog right?) ...*nod*
Ugh, seriously get a life? Stop trying to live mine. I don't know why no one's realised any of this either, but she's not herself. Her attitude has totally changed and now she's a motherfucking attention seeking whore, and who would guess this? I hate her. Lol yup. She's not my friend, she's treating me like a bitch. Why does everyone see her as the victim of this story? Cause right now don't you even try talk to me about how she's feeling, I don't give a damn. I've tried avoiding this fight the best I can but she's driving me insane. I've backed down and I've given her the trophy, so why can't she fucking let it go? Why must she continuously try to rub it in my face? She's taking all my friends away from me now... and they're happy like that. Because why? Because I'm the slut. You name it, whatever I've done in the past, she's doing it now. Do you really think you can be me better than I can? No, so fucking give it up already. But I'm ignoring all this, I'm letting her have her way but recently, it's too much for me to handle. I face her everyday holding back the urge to retaliate. But I'm not going to play this game, I'm not going to make it hard for him. I'm not going to treat him like a toy two kids are fighting over, because he's not. He's a human being and one that doesn't deserve all this. I'll let him go though if you like, as my friend. Just stop putting him through all this shit.
Lol, woah that was a big paragraph. But there's more to come :D I hate her, oh yeaaaaaaahs I do. Do you know how annoying and painful it is? It's like I have to let you go all over again, when I already am over you. But I don't like the way she's playing this 'game' .. it's like a pansy game of Netball where you can't have contact. Grr. Know what skank? He's my motherchucking friend too and I do have the right to spend time with him. I'm not going to make him choose between us, I'm gonna let him make his own decisions, even if that means what's between me&him will be lost, so be it. As long as he's happy and free, and knows that I'm here for him, I'll survive.
I like Kevin's motto, 'No Trust, No Love'. So if his girl doesn't trust him being with his other friends, he won't even take another look at her. Good on ya vinno :D
This morning.. on the bus while you were looking grumpy. Was it cause you were scared of what others might think about this? Lol. That's when I began to think about ways to solve this, why isn't that everytime I do so .. the only way I see you ever being happy is if I leave? Maybe because it's true. You're a strong boy and I know you can live without me. I know I can't live without you .. but watching you from the sidelines I guess will get me by. Just .. do what you think is best for you kay? Don't worry about what jiwwy thinks or feels.. she'll be okay seeing you smile.
Ohh and about that thing I heard this morning. Oh really now? You feel bad? Do you want to be forgiven? HAH! You wish asshole. I don't care how bad you're feeling or how many times you apoligise. You did what you did, knowing it would hurt me and yet you still chose to go ahead with it. That was your choice and this is mine. I don't trust you as a friend anymore, no matter how much of a good friend you were, that's all in the past now. And all I know now is that I can't trust you. It's always harder the second time 'round.. and maybe who knows, we might be able to reach that level of friendship again.
I'm sick of this, waiting around. I know I told you I wouldn't try to take you away or do anything that would seem like it, and I wouldn't complain about it and all.. but that can't change the fact I'm missing you. Yeah I'll wait, I'll wait til she isn't around .. to talk to you and be with you again. Just to be friends .. but that seems impossible seeing as how she always finds a way to take that chance away from me. She's cruel like that. But you don't see it, and I guess typing that out was a mistake. But oh well. It's tiring though, sitting around for what seems to be like forever.. and you not even glancing at me once. Sometimes it feels like you don't care anymore and that you've forgotten me, or maybe you still remember me and that, but you're just too busy for me now. It's like I'm slowly getting phased out of your life and you have no idea.
I want to stay and fight, I wanna stand up to her and give it all I've got, I wanna fight for you.. because I'm scared if I don't, she might take over everything I am in your life and you won't need me anymore. But I'm not going to fight, I know you don't want me to .. it'd just make things harder for you anyways. I'll keep quiet.
HAHAHAHA, apparently rumours been sayin' that I was too sick and depressed to go to the beach. But why would I do that? Oh yeah cause you motherfuckers been cheatin' me --' But yup, even if I am depressed when I go out I leave all my problems behind. All I want is just a little escape with friends and have fun, and that's what I do. I'm not there to be a party pooper, moping around begging for attention and sympathy. I'm there to join in and have fun with everyone, that's what I do. I'm not like her. So yeah, I did rock up and had one of the best times with my bestie baby.
I'm tired now, gonna have an early night. Laters yo.
