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~wuffu<3♣

Monday, November 9, 2009 / 11:00 PM

Yo, how was everyone's day aye? Mine? Mine was fairly alright. A few downfalls here and there but you know, just a normal day I guess. Hahaha, ohh, I won't be posting so often now cause like it's the end of the year and I have shitloads of assignments to do. I will only post after 10:30pm if I have finished my homework :)

Anywho, this morning was so, so awesome. Waiting for the arrival of the cutie, I sat there thinking about so many random things.. and when he came I was just so happy :) Yes yes, I know I see him every day but like.. he never fails to make me smile everyday seeing him in the morning. Hehes.

First lesson today was Science and we were in the computer room. I actually tried to do work and wrote quite a fair bit, but I just got so bored.. so I just gave up and sat there talking to Samuel for a while. Hahaha, it was actually quite nice.. despite the fact I wasn't allowed to listen to music :/

In PE today we just went to the weights room to sit around. Jess & I sat on the bikes again and I worked out my legs ROFL. Yeah, I wanna lose the fatty fat on my thighs ): but yeah, we just pretty much sat there all lesson talking about stuff like girls do. :)

French double was so .. bludgey. We were supposedly supposed to write our own alternative ending to the L'oreille de Coupee story again. We did work it out :D .. all I have to do is write out the story in English so Vuong can translate it and Samuel can animate it. We work to our advantages :) Then we just sat there talking about the most random things.. from families to friends and all. Wow, it's something I do quite often aye? Just sitting around talking to anyone about anything. Is that a good or bad thing?

After lunch we had Photography. I tried to start on my tutorial again but just got way distracted :) I actually got pretty darn annoyed this lesson. Maybe tell you why later :) Mm, but then kitty and I went to the library so I could put in some internet credit.. but truth is I knew I had credit anyways /giggle. I just wanted to walk with you :) .. don't be angry kay? D: ): .. Haha. But yeah, after that we went to get a drink from the vending machine but that was stuffed up. GRR! Aha, then I went back to my Photography class where I just got pissed off again. But sat around with Helen talking about stuff, (Y) s'all good in the hooooood.

When school was over I went to Arndale with my cat so I could buy some hair clips. Yes, because that's just really important ^^ Mm, we went to that place.. to get my bus ticket and then to Big W because he needed ANOTHER pack of cards? Lol.. hehehehe, he also bought spray on sunscreen because he's a girl like that :) Then we went to Maccas to grab a munch and caught the bus home.

I'm trying to hard to spend time with you .. and I don't know why anymore. I really should stop, and maybe I will .. maybe just during the weeks? And gradually stop trying. But the thing is, it's the only thing I want to do but can't. I'm so selfish ... but I don't want to be this way, but I can't help it. How often do I use 'but'. I need to change that too --' LOL. Anywhos, back on topic. I don't know why I try so hard because all I get in the end is disappointment. Like I could use anymore of that -______-'' haha. Rahrahrahrahrah stop it jill! The world doesn't revolve around you, no one's world does .. because no one in their right mind would ever do something like that. Quit it.

What else? Oh yeaaaaaaaaaaah, man that douchebag that took my friends leg better just confess already. Why do you keep pleeing NOT GUILTY!? Because you OBVIOUSLY ARE. You don't know how many people are ready to smash your guts in >:] \sighsighsighsighsigh.

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, some people these days.. think too much of themselves. They think they are so much better than they really are and it's driving me nutso! Seriously, come the fuck back down to Earth. Look at who you really are --' .. because you obviously aren't being that person now.

Oh right, there's a certain person that's making life a bit hard for someone they should be making life better for. Like honestly, no one fucking cares alright? No one cares if no one is talking to you, no one cares if no one is listening to you, no one seriously fucking cares. When you're invited to an occasion for someone's birthday or something, it's THEIR day.. stop trying to be the fucking centre of attention all the time and stealing the spotlight. You're not that cute, or appealing to anyone.. because they're all doing it out of sympathy. Okay, a friend is being nice to you and giving you attention.. that doesn't mean everyone else will as well. Honestly, fuck you. You make me wanna slap you every fucking time I see you. QUIT IT DICKFUCK.

Ehh, my days are alright I guess LOL. One person makes it better :) .. although he has the ability to bring it right back down again. But what's up with this weather seriously D: .. it's so freaking hot. And all I wanna do is wag and go spend the day at the beach with buddies. Wonder who and when :) Wednesday is gonna be 39degrees! And Thursday is gonna be freaking 40degrees! Faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaark! I don't wanna go to school... but then it would be a waste of living if I didn't take the oppurtunity to see you when I can.

Because certain times were meant for us, but everything is being taken away and I have no power to change it.. or maybe I do. Just, I'm not allowed to. I'm not allowed to complain to you. It's not right on you. I can't.. so why do I keep doing it? Because I am pathetic.