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The ones who were there.
Friday, December 25, 2009 / 1:46 AM

So this darned year of ox, 2009, is coming to an end. Finally, thank the lord people! I've hated this year so bad haha. It started off with many family disputes, resulting to my so called rebellious stage.. but also started the more outgoing Jill. & I mean that literally haha. I started going out a lot more, and I met some of the most wonderful people.. A few of those were right there under my nose :) hehe. So this here, is a post due to boredom is a shout-out to all those lovely people I've met along the way. :D

Kitty/Steve Isian Chang.
It's no surprise that you're first to mention, you always come first to me. Like I've told you before, I would give up anything and everything for you. You're like that best friend I never had haha, no offence Krystal.. he has what you don't \looks downstairs. LOL! But yes, he's been there through it all pretty much, and he's stayed. Despite all the shit I give him sometimes and all the arguments we've had, we're here boy ;D I hate myself for not noticing him sooner, I wasted like 2 years! 2 years longer that I could've known you for. Holy shit I'm dumb&blind ROFL. He's that one that's lived up to pretty much every word he's said, and chased away all my fears. He's that one that always manages to put a smile on my face when things take a turn for the worst. He really is my one & only :) Pahaha, of all the times we've had together I couldn't pick out one favourite moment. I love them all :) Although I do remember this one time we were chilling at his house, it was one of the best nights haha. That weirdo started going hyper and dancing. Yes, dancing. He, for some weirdass reason, decided to grab a cup and shake it as he was shaking his sexy ass. Why in the world? I will never know. But he managed to get the both of us wet. HAHAHA. And there never will be enough time for us kittydear, but we'll have the rest of our lives. And damn right you'll be in my life forever >;D I'm not letting you slip away sweetie hehe. Though, I do feel sorry for you, you have to put up with ME for the rest of your life. Oh dear God, someone save him LOL. NO! Kidding! Fuck you :L, don't you dare take him away. You can't :) hehe. I don't know where this paragraph is heading now.. so I'll just end it here. I love you dear KittySteve Isian Chang, I always will :) and there's not one person in existance or non-existance that could ever come close to you in my life. :D
(Ps, yeah there were pictures of him up there, but they have been removed for selfish reasons. They are for my eyes only, and if any of you sluts saved them.. :O fucking delete them now because I seriously will slap the crap out of you. But if you weren't lucky enough to see them, too bad for you. You missed out on something wonderful! Muwahahaha! :3)


Krystal something-Jing Tang.
I don't know how to write your other name, so I gave up trying to find out. But yes, I've known this skank for a year and a half now? It's almost two years .. and yet I still love her so God damn much. Although we've had our good times & bad, we're still the best of friends at the end of the day. She's been there for me no matter what, even if I can be the most annoying faggot ever (: .. She's always there. Krystal's that one person that I don't know I have to talk to every day, to keep our friendship in tact. That's how awesome we are lol, in secret we send telepathetic brain messages to eachother.. <>'' LOL. Kidding, she doesn't know how to yet. She's such a slow turtle \shake. She's that one I can always have a good laugh with, even if there's nothing to laugh at .. we always find something hehe. But you know one thing about her that I hate? D: .. That she's always gosh darn cheating on me right in front of my eyes! Damn whore. And LOL at how our convos always manage to turn dirty. Seriously, we could be talking to eachother like little kids, something so innocent.. turns into something so dirty after it's become one of our discussion topics. But it also made me realise how dirty these lines sound. "Go to your room! I'm going to teach you a lesson!" HAHAHAHAHAHA xD I'm loving this bitch so much, there's no end to it. I love you whoreee!


Alan 'Yuki' Minh Man Tran.
My my, what a big boy he's grown into. And yet, he's still such a baby in my eyes 8). Yeah that's right, you can't do anything about that xD hahaha. This seems a little dejavu? I've written something like this before.. but oh wells. There's never enough to be said about this kid, he's absolutely amazing. He's so adorable too, that babyface of his that I could never get sick of. But don't let the looks get to you, he's not one of those dumb blondes (Get it? Blonde? Remember that Goku?), oh no. He's a very bright kid too (CAUSE HE WAS BLONDE? LOL man I love these blonde jokes)! Mm, there's nothing he couldn't achieve if he set his mind to it. And there's nothing anyone could ever do to make me hate him. I love this kid to bitttttts! He's another one of those people that can turn my day around when it's gone wrong. Just seeing his bubbly little face makes me smile =) There's so much about him I love, so much that I can't remember ffs D: but yess.. I just can't get enough of him. And you know what else I can't get enough of? The sushi he shouts me :D hehe. I love you Anal Tran!


Jason 'Gia Huy' Tran.
The second of my Tran boys, there's no one that's like him haha. Quite surprising that I've only known him for a .. a month? Wow 8) But there's so much more time ahead of us. He's that kid I just love chilling with, to relax and have fun with. Though our outings are pretty much spontaneous and poorly planned.. they always manage to be the best. What else do I love about this kid? He's always singing.. and I just love it. :L. He has a darn good voice and he knows how to use it, he has a few moves too ;D He has got to be one of those people that everyone loves, because there is not one thing you could find about him to hate. Oh, maybe the fac that he can be a total bitch to me at times! Especially when he's unhappy, he teases me just because my reactions help cheer him up.. I guess that's a good thing he's happy, but like, still. >.> LOL. And that he's a little bossy, but whatever makes him smile will make me as well. But I seriously love this kid :) he's one of my few escapes towards the harsh reality we live in. Huywhore, I love you!


Kevin Samreth. (I don't have any pictures of this guy, I don't think I'm allowed to upload them anyways. But that's just bad luck for you :D)
Boy oh boy, this guy right here has got to be one of my most cherished people. He's always there for me no matter what, even if I'm in the wrong. And even though we tend to have so many arguments, we're always there for eachother. There's no other friend like him :) He's always ready to give me some advice, even if I may decide to reject it at the time. It's kinda odd that I don't hang out with him much either, yet we're still so close. It's rare that we ever hang out with eachother, and when we do it is kinda awkward .. but we still somehow manage to have fun? Part of this is due to the fact that he's so touchy ROFL. Go on, I dare you.. just poke him and he will jump and chuck a spazz at you xD It's so funy to watch hahaha. And I know in the years to come, he will remain in my life to watch over me and guide me along the way. He's just that type of guy you know? Hahaha, I love youu monkeyvinno! :D

Deon 'A' Luong.
Ahh, my one & only little bro. That's right nigger, :L. I'm never accepting anyone else as that role because you're the only one I need. Although you can be so stubborn sometimes, I love you :D You always manage to get your with way with me haha.. And that's only because I HATE seeing you unhappy. I love how we have really stupid arguments sometimes.. that result to us screaming at eachother whenever we're in the same room LOL. Mhmm, I could never buy you enough Beard Papas to satisfy your needs, but I will someday! Trust me :] I will. Hahaha, hanging out with this kid has got to be one of the best things in life. He's just so funny and random at times. That kyoote, adorkable, eBil, cool & mysterious little brother no one but I am lucky to have. Love you kiddo!


jASs.
jillAndySamuelsteve. Oh God I miss those times with you boys! You may all think I despise gamerguys, but truth is I used to hang out with these guys every Saturday night to game. Soul Calibur bitches! ROFL. Yes my Taki and hotboy Yun-Seong will own you all. Stuff you Voldo, get bones you whore. LOL. We had the best times together :) we shared so much fun and so many laughs.. Memories that will last a lifetime. But fun isn't what keeps us together, it's the trust and corny friendship we share haha. Those boys are 3 that I could trust with my life :) They're the ones that I've loved so much and for so long :) hehe.


Helen fatman Tran.
Oh damn this sexy bitch, I would fuck her. LMAO. She is the most loveable girl in town, there's no one like her in this world. She's that one that's such a good friend to all who knows her, she doesn't judge.. or hate. Unless it's Misa Campo LOLOLOL. Helen Tran is the fat bitch you could tell all your secrets to, and know they're safe. She'll always be there to listen to your problems, and give you the right advice to help you on your way to resolving them. She's another one of those best friends you couldn't find anywhere else haha. I've known her ever since year 8, and yes she's that one that gave me the nickname Jill. Because she couldn't say my Viet name the weirdass. And guess what? Now she calls me 'Kelly' ..because she mispelt 'Jelly'. I wonder if that names ever gonna catch on. LOL. Man, she's one I hope to forever keep in my life, for all those moments in the past she's cared, loved, made me laugh and smile. There are so many memories we've shared together, like.. so many! And I would love to create even more with you. Hahaha, going back through our past.. how many Goddamn kinky moments have we had? ;D .. I can't help it, she's just so sexy (; .. \giggles. Even though I hate that Samuel fag for stealing her away from me, they're the most adorable couple I've ever seen haha. Ugh, damn you! Helen, I love you so much babe.


Brandon Nguyen.

Holy fook, I've only known Brandogga for like a couple of weeks now.. but time doesn't matter. He's one of those guys that have the ability to just cheer me up after something shit has happened, without even knowing it. Even though I hate repeating myself, I feel as though I have to explain and repeat everything to this guy - it's so annoying, I don't really mind it at all? Lols. He's wonderful company and spending time with him is the bomb, even if he's a little clueless and adorkable most of the time haha. His cheerful, clueless, bubbly character has got me smiling most of the time but there's just this one thing I hate about him. He's DotA's, a little too much. What kind of kid in the right mind would stay up all night jsut to DotA. Weirdo. Oh wells, at least he still talks to me during DotA sessions. But it's those late nights talking to him that we get to know eachother (: .. He may not know it but talking to him helps. Being this really nosy kinda guy, he asks a lot about whatever situations or problems I'm having. And having to talk about it to someone, helps me let it go. Better yet, he won't tell me what to do or give me unnecessary advice or opinions, he just listens. He just listens. It's something I need a lot of people to learn. Thanks Brandoggga, for the laughs and for everything. ♥


Paul Trang.

OH. MY. GOD. This guy can be so annoying! He complains about everything I do :/ .. gosh. LOL, kidding. Love this guy (: I remember when I first met him lol, it was out of a random convo that Ly had added him into. But over those first few nights, we became good friends. Yup, guess what? After I had told him how much I disliked guys who gamed too often, he gave up DotA for a few nights! Like, wow! Hahaha. But that was pretty awesome. Even though I rarely get to see him or spend time with him in person, he's always there for a good chat on MSN. He'd listen to everything I had to say about anything, and help guide me to where I wanted to head towards. He's such a good friend to have a good laugh with, and share memories with. Haha, even if we rarely talk these days. Thanks nigger ♥ I really do wish I could spend more time with him, even if he denies it. But then again, we have plenty of time left for that, don't we? :)


Long Lu.
This guy right here, Long effing Lu, this Luu-ser right here has got to be one of my best friends in life. After everything we've been through, he's still always there to cheer me up. He's still one of those people that knows me best. He always, for some stalker-ish reason, knows when I'm upset. He knows exactly what to do and say to cheer me up. When something's wrong, he's one of those people I can trust with everything.. and same goes from me to him. We can share our life stories with eachother, because the trust is there. I don't know how or why, we don't get to see eachother much anymore, and it's damn gay! But that's okay I guess, cause some things are worth the wait. He's one of those rare guys, that I'm lucky to have met and befriend. I really don't know what I'd do without this guy here. We've been through so much, and we're not going to stop anytime soon. We better not! Hahaha, thankyou Long Lu, love you bro. ♥


Okay, I'm crappy tired now.. and I'm going to stop here. But for those who haven't been mentioned, don't worry - I love you all ♥ :). It's just, these were the ones who came to mind and stood out above all the rest. Hahaha.

Well, 2009 is nearing it's end. There's only 23 hours left of the year, and the ending is going to be spent with loved ones. That's the only way to finish it off. It's not a year that I've loved, so many I hold close to my heart have been hurt and so much shit has happened. This definitely was a year that I changed drastically from my old self, from better to worse, from worse to who I am now. I've learnt a lot about myself this year, and I've also found out who the real friends were and weren't. Yup, 2009 was a life changing year for me. And I honestly, still do hate it... but right now, sitting in it's last few hours. I'm atually feeling a little sad? Oh well, 2010 is going to make a change. It's going to be better, it has to be .. oh fuck that. Let's stop wishing and make it a better year instead. That's right, are ya with me?

farewell 2OO9;
hello 2O1O!