rolling dice

now i'm jumping on the questions again, losing all my senses again - i'm a rolling dice and i don't think twice, i gave my heart away

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Sunday, December 27, 2009 / 1:52 AM

I'm torn between the two, and this really just isn't fair on either.. or myself. Seriously? Honestly? I love the both of you, and if I could.. I would spend pretty much all my time with you two. But I've never been able to do so, it's always been either one or the other. I can't have both, that's kinda selfish of me to want that too. I can't force you two to be together, and so I won't. Thing is, I'm torn between the both of you.. Yes, you're both just so loveable in so many ways. But it's killing me kids, don't know how much more this old bitch can take. \shake

It's pretty damn gay, when I tell one I can't hang out with them cause I already promised the other. I see that look on their face and it just kills me, I hate it. I would do anything, ANYTHING, for a moment I could spend with you two & that other .. Us 4 together, my favourite people & I having fun. Sounds corny and gay doesn't it? Lol, well it's my gay corny dream. It's what I hope for everyday, but I know it's a day that will never come. But you can't blame me for a little wishful thinking right? I mean, it is healthy for us all anyways. Gives us something to look forward to and work towards. And maybe someday, it will happen.. That's about as optimistic as this bitch right here can get. If you know me well enough, you'll know how pessimistic I am about my own life. You would be too, if you were me.

This weekend was supposed to be the best weekend of my holidays. And why? Well because I'd get to see all 3 of you.. even if not all together at the same time, at least I got to see you's. It got killed, by that darn skank. Fuck, how I hate her. But that's for some blog, some other day.. so yeah stay tuned for that story lol!

Thanks you, for the fantabulous shopping day. I had a great time with you :) hehe. Even if you did scare me a little at the end..
& of course, thank you to you for giving me that small amount of time at the end of the day. It brought me up heaps, I was a little down prior to that ^^''
I love you both dearly, I always will.

Although, you. You, you.. you. Wait, I'll save it for another day. I'm sick of talking about this depressing crap. I have enough to handle on my mind, I don't want to go below the surface and deeper into my thoughts, it just might kill me. ♥