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I was like "oh, oh, oh, I never wanna let you go, go, go."♣

Tuesday, March 2, 2010 / 11:11 PM

Hello hello there! I don't really feel like listing the events of today. Things were just queer. But I guess I'll list some things for the sake of it mmkays?

I decided to use my earphones today, even though one side doesn't work anymore, because I was that desperate for music. So that meant, in Maths A with Helen and Ken, I fell asleep a lot. :) Chemistry, I found out my test results and I got a B. Not very proud of myself though. During Maths C, I had to eat to keep myself awake and I found out, taking a walk really does help. Lunch was the best! First game of 13s with the boys and I won! :D No, it wasn't beginner's luck. I'm just awesome. :) In Research Project, Helen and I were just singing the whole time and that was fair fun. I also managed to finish my proposal for research project. Afterschool, the bus was late so my optometrist got rescheduled to next Tuesday. Fair enough. So kitty and I went to Woolies to buy stuff and my brother took us home.

Mm, okay. I understand that it's normal, but is it really necessary? Whenever we're like this, it kills. I don't like it. I understand, memories of the past are very haunting.. but know that you're not the only one. Know that, I'm going through it as well. The difference is that I've learnt to suppress the memories from showing through the surface. It's not a nice feeling, I know. Trust me. But tell me :), I'm here to feel the pain and share the happiness with you.

Back in the days, when I did you wrong.
Now I break down in tears, but I still stay strong.
Our relationship, I wanted it to be long.
I showed you love, I wrote you songs.

Wifey material that will have my child.
It makes me happy, when I see you smile.
I was there and I cared for you.
Everythin' I did, was for my boo.
And yes, that's you, and you know it's true.

When I was down, I needed you.
You never showed up, but yes I knew.
I'm not the only guy, and there's a few.
That you flirt with, and you wanna be with.

I wanna be your boy, and I wish I could,
Be the one there, when you needed someone.
I was happy first, when you called me hun.
But it ain't just me, I ain't the only one.
I felt so bad, and the feelin's gone.

I was on the phone, that night, with my friend.
She's like deCkz look, you gotta understand.
That's how girls are, so act like a man.
When they need you, just give them your hand.
Just win their heart, so start as a friend.

I'm so confused, I miss my boo.
She's like, "stop crying, just play it cool."
So from that night, I knew what to do.
Stop being stubborn, and be there for you.

Thinkin' to myself, if only you knew.
I'll do anythin' and yes I will,

I'll be the one there when you want to chill.
No matter what, I'll love you still.
And here is somethin' that will always be real.

You are the one I love,
You are the one I need.
You're the only one in my heart.
Baby come save me..
You are the one I love,
You are the one I need.
You're the only one in my heart.

Baby come save me.

I know there are times when you will be scared.
That I'm not comin' home and I won't be here.
When you need me, but don't worry.
I'll be by your side, when it's stormy.
I'll block the wind, but your heart will warm me.

You're my sunshine, dryin' the rain that hits me.

All you gotta do is promise me,
That you'll stay by my side, and never leave me.
I won't be your toy, but I'll be your boy.
I know I've made you mad, but girl rejoice.

See the happy times and all the sad times.
They come and go, sometimes combine.

Just like me and you, we will collide.
I'll make everythin' good, at least I'll try.

I made promises, hope I won't break them.

You are my love, you're the only one.
You're my sweetums, my honeybun.
I won't use you, and I won't hurt you.
A promise made, and I'll always love you.

You and me, is love in my dictionary.
You're the only girl I wanna marry.
Havin' you, God I feel so lucky.
I already said this, I love you so muchy.

Gotta ask once more, do you love me?
If somethin' bad happens, would you stick by me?
Can you see when I'm not happy?
In the future, would you cheat on me?

If I'm hurt, would you cry for me?
If I'm sad, would you care for me?
Do you even know what real love is?
You're a young girl, but can't you see?
I'm taking this so seriously.

You are the one I love,
You are the one I need.
You're the only one in my heart.
Baby come save me..
You are the one I love,
You are the one I need.

Baby come save me.

Times goin' by, and it's gettin' hard.
But I promise you, we will never depart.
We aregue like every night,
But you told me it's gonna be alright.
Truthfully, I don't wanna fight.
But I'mma stubborn kid, I'ono what's right.

Our relationship, won't be goin' far.
And if we keep this up, yes we will fall.
I'm the only one that says I love you.
How I'll never put anyone above you.

But what about me? What do I get?
Love in return? Or sex in bed?
Nothing. I'm left here, writin' on my desk.
Thought I was blessed to have you here.
Right at first, but wrong in the end.

And damn, I still pretend.
Nothin' is wrong but I'm writin' this song.
Breakin' inside but I gotta be strong.
It won't be long, cause time will pass.
And I know it will be hard for us to last.

Not my girl, you're just my friend.
With benefits, that God has sent.
But that wasn't what I took you uas.
I was just too shy, to even ask.
I have the fear, that my heart will crack.
Beggin' in the future to have you back.

Took a deep breath, looked up to the sky.
Smiled with tears, while I'm closin' my eyes.

Wishin' you was here, right by my side.
The end is here, and I gotta cry.

Sorry I was wrong, but at least I tried..
Now I guess it's time, for me to say bye.

I loved you..

You are the one I love,
You are the one I need.
You're the only one in my heart.
Baby come save me..
You are the one I love,
You are the one I need.
Baby come save me.
deCkz feat White Shadow - You Are The One ♥