Trying to not mess up.♣
Monday, March 1, 2010 / 10:47 PM
Don't you just hate Monday mornings? They're always my worst.. having to wake up early after a busy weekend and immediately settle into 5 days of study. Ugh. Nothing really got through to me today, I was too tired.
Started off the day with Legal Studies and we just went through the booklet and tried to finish off anything we could. Then Ms. Jessen came and gave us another assignment that seems easy enough. I prefer design, creative assignments because I can always use the little Photoshop skill I have.. hehe. Sat there talking to Samuel about random things while Terry butt in from time to time again ahahaha.
Maths felt like it was taking hours, even though it was only a shortened single lesson. God damn I was so tired.. I tried to keep myself awake by writing out whichever lyrics were on my mind.. and it just happened to be 'Take a Bow' by Rihanna. Kept falling asleep whilst in the middle of writing, because I'm cool like that.
Psychology was pretty interesting today. We got a new assignment and the task is to research an unethical experiment and discuss it in an essay. I found so many experiments that just managed to piss me off big time. Here are two that really got to me. Little Albert and Harry Harlow. Honestly, they'll make you question humanity.
After lunch, I had English and that was the gayest lesson ever. I was supposed to be doing research and preparation for my oral presentation but I really could not be stuffed. And the lesson seemed to pass by fast enough so it wasn't that bad.
When school ended, we met up at Helen's lockers like we always do just to see everyone before we left. Then we hurried to catch the bus because I had to be home early for family reasons. My parents let me bring the boyfriend home, so we just hung out in my cramped little room for the rest of the day til he left. Haha, I fell asleep for a little while since I was in his arms.. and it's rare that we get the opportunity to do so. It was nice. :)
Mm, so today I had a realisation. I really missed a certain person. I don't know whether I can call him a friend or not, considering the way we are now and the way we are in the past. Although at times he could be a pain to talk to, and we always often argued.. he was nice company when needed. It's different now. We're like strangers. And I told myself not to care about him or the problem, because he didn't seem to at all. He's living life normally, so why can't I? I guess I'll accept it someday that things aren't the same anymore. I just have those moments where I look back and miss the good ol' times. Maybe, someday it'll change and maybe we'll be close buddies again.. but there's no way I can just sit around and wait til that day comes. So all I can do is just look forward and deep down hope for the best, right?
Anyways, I badly need earphones and a new media device. I'm going insane without my music being portable. But when I do get the chance, (usually as soon as I get home and turn up the speakers) I'm falling in love with Elliott Yamin, Owl City, Stevie Hoang, Utada Hikaru and, of course, Taylor Swift. Here's some lyrics that are constantly running through my mind;
So don't be afraid, to fall in love.
Cause I don't believe in giving up.
Just give me chance, to earn your trust.
Cause I know I can be everything that you need.
Don't be afraid to fall in love.
And don't ever say that it's just too much.
So cherish every moment, that you have with them.
Promise to never let them go.
Cause girl you had my heart, right from the very start.
But still you gotta know...
Even though I told myself that I've moved on,
Deep down I keep on holding on.
It's crazy but true
Girl, I'm missing you.
And although I'm with somebody else,
Girl I can't keep lying to myself.
And no matter what, I gotta face the truth..
She just ain't you.
I'll give you my heart..
- Hold on, let me sign it.
" your senorita, aka your best friend. x "
Hey Stephen Stevie(: , I've been holding back this feelin' so I've got some things to say to you.
I've seen it all, - so I thought.
But I never seen nobody shine the way you do.
The way you talk, the way you talk, the way you say my name.
It's beautiful, wonderful, don't you ever change.
Hey Stephen Stevie(:, why are people always leavin? I think you and I should stay the same.
Cause I can't help it if you look like an angel.
Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain so..
Come and feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you!
Can't help it if there's no one else.
Hey Stephen Stevie(:, I could give you 50 reasons, why I should be the one you choose.
Of all those other girls, rather beautiful, but would they write a song for you?
And then there's deCkz ft. White Shadow - You Are The One remix. I know, it's old.. but it's good. And I love all the lyrics. :)
Oh by the way, have you realised what today is? The 1st day of March, the 1st day of Autumn! Autumn Autumn Autumn! Don't you just love this season? I know I sure do. :) I've been waiting for this season to come back 'round since June last year! And here it is again. :D Pretty clothes, Autumn fashion is always the best. Not too cold, not too hot. The weather is pretty much the same as well, nice and cool. There's also a special day coming up people! *coughmybirthdaycough* hehe. No hint. :)
