I'm surprised that I've written this much already, in the time span of almost a year. I love my blog honestly. Just somewhere I can let out everything without being judged. Also a way for me to communicate things to other people.
Another thing to celebrate for me is that today was my final exam! Maths Studies C, and it was fairly easy since I actually took the time to study. I'm glad these were only "trial mid-year" exams that just prepare me for exams because they actually helped me prepare. I know now that I have to pay attention in class and work even if it's messy. I don't think I did well this time but there's always the end of year results to make up for it.
After exams I spent the day shopping in town with Kitty, Helen, Andy and Samuel. The most epic thing happened.. A pigeon had hooked its claws into another pigeons head and didn't let go. It was pretty much dragging the poor things head along the ground as it was struggling to get out. Poor thing. :/ I also purchased a blazer today thanks to the dear boyfriend. Another item added to the warddrobe that should've been there a while ago. But oh well.. Currently looking for more oversized shirts, comfy, home-y sweaters and lacy items. I found a few items at Ice but they looked kinda dodgey.. :/ Must pay a trip to Harbourtown soon.
Lol two of my friends today also got tatts. I know a lot of people around me disapprove of them, I do like quite a few tattoo designs. Not the hardcore, full colourful ones but more the simple, small, delicate ones. Just looking around I found this awesome one and even though it isn't small, you gotta admit it's awesome isn't it?
Quite a few people are starting to show their depression again for various reasons. And for some I think it really is time to just let go. I know that when I'm upset and trying to get over someone, I just let the pain twist my heart and head around til it hurts no more. Or at least is sick of doing so and just gives up on being hung up. And I eventually just get better. It's also kind've queer watching a couple of close friends being lead on blindly as well. Not one of those short-term things either.. it's been quite a while.
I've said this before to someone and I think I should say leave a message here in case anyone in that heartbreak-ish situation stumbles along. It probably won't help because I give the noob-est advice but I'd like to at least try.
If they left you, or hurt you and caused you to be in the state you.. they obviously don't appreciate you. And no matter who you are, you deserve better than that. You deserve someone who wants you, needs you, loves you and appreciates you.
There's no point staying hung up over something that's already happened, because it's in the past and nothing's going to change it. Life goes on whether or not you want it to and since you have a long road ahead of you, you may as well live it happily.
If you're upset and you're okay with it - keep doing whatever it is you're doing. If you aren't, then do something about it.
Don't dwell in the darkness and wonder why everyone is having such a great life. Life is what you make it, and you may as well make it damn good.
Yes, I can be quite a bitch most of the time but if you need something or just someone to listen to you I'm always here. Even if I give you attitude and start being bossy, it's only because I care and since the Mr. Nice Guy attitude isn't working, Brute Force is the only other way. Learn it the way Jason Tran did. :)
This blog is getting way too corny for my liking, so I'll probably stop it here.
I wish the rest of you'se who still have exams the best of luck, study hard! Rug up and stay warm, ♥.
