In all honesty..♣
Thursday, June 10, 2010 / 6:31 PM
I know that sometimes it seems that I let out a little too much onto my blog. A little too much information about my personal thoughts, experiences and happenings.. but then again that's a lie because there's so much more I would much rather keep to myself.
In a previous blog I had said that it's not always about you, and that you should consider the other persons side of the story as well. Although I was being a bitch when I wrote that, it's true.. isn't it? Life is never fair and sometimes you just have to harden the fuck up. Life's basically a test to see how strong you are. The weak give in and die early, or they've just been through too much for themselves to handle.
Everyone experiences depression at one stage or another, don't lie. It may not have been severe or to the extent of others, but it's still counted as depression. Knowing what I know and being through what I have been through, I'm surprised that I'm still here and that I myself haven't given up. And in taking consideration to others, I have to realise that what I see as 'the end of the world' really isn't anything. There are those out there who live in war and poverty whilst I'm here with pretty much everything I need. Those who are starving to death whilst I eat all this junk. As much as I would like to help, there's only so much I can do due to my age and power. I do admire those who have found the strong will to offer a helping hand. But we can't all be superheroes.
I've lost track of the reason/message behind this post, but I still feel like rambling so bare with me a little while longer. And if you can't, that 'X' in the top right hand corner is always an option. Or if you're too lazy to bring your hand over to the mouse, alt+f4 is always there.
Every now and then, life just starts acting up and it's like it's just getting worse. But at times like those all you really have to do is look on the brighter side of life. Appreciate what you already have and who you already have, compared to those who have nothing and no one. Feel lucky. It's all about perspective. For example: being left by your boyfriend/girlfriend of quite a while. Sure, it may feel like everything's lost and that's that. That you may as well take your own life just as they had done to you. But no. Instead, realise that you have family and friends that care for you and are supporting you through it all. Now you have more freedom and can do whatever the hell you like. No restrictions. Right?
Mm, I know I'm nothing special and yeah, I can be a total moody bitch pretty much all of the time.. but please consider my feelings. I know when I'm wrong and I will apologise, I mean it when I say it. Please don't just say you understand, that you're sorry.. but then do nothing about it and just go back to the way you were. It only forces me to believe that you don't actually give a damn about me.
And if that's the case.. I beg that you at least pretend that you do. It might just help me.
Then again, I'm sure you have your reasons.
