Lost and insecure♣
Wednesday, August 25, 2010 / 9:58 PM
Well I know that it's a wonderful world
But I can't feel it right now
Well I thought that I was doing well
But I just want to cry now
- James Morrison; ♥
I'm not at my best right now, and things could be a whole lot better. But I'm just gonna have to woman the fuck up and face it. My best comforts right now are that guy I really like, and my music. Oh, and I guess that slut of a friend, KT. Wish that I could just get away from it all, but it's always everywhere. There's always something that goes wrong and involves me.
Yesterday the group and I, along with some disgusting middle school'ers, participated in the annual packing of Zonta Birthing Kits. Basically, it's a small pack containing a plastic mat, a pair of gloves, string, soap, a surgical scalpel and bandages that we send to third world countries to assist women with a clean birth. This year ours were being sent to Papua New Guinea.
The packing of the Birthing Kits is something I like to participate in whenever I can because I feel like I'm actually helping someone somehow. A little charity work never does any harm. But the ladies from Zonta who came to supervise us were horrible. Gamen and I were at the beginning of the line and we had to pack the gloves. I put the gloves together whilst Gamen put them in the plastic pockets, but we slowed down a little because the people who were putting the plastic mats in couldn't fold them properly. The whole time we were packing and fixing, the ladies just stood there and complained about how slow we were and that we needed more help. Pretty fucking annoying. We're doing charity work you fools, don't complain. You should be glad we're taking time out on study to help you lazy asses who can't do it themselves.
A goal I'm going to set for myself, is to complete homework on time and sleep earlier so I stop coming to school late. I've been so out of line these past few weeks, I'm not only letting myself but the people around me down. Complete failure.
Oh, and I'm going to drop Chemistry. I have no use for the subject or the lesson anymore. It's kay cause we're like strangers now anyways hey? I don't want to stress over a subject I'm not going to have any use for, and risk failing or having that failing grade on my report along with the others.
I think I really, really need a break from everything. But first, I have to prove that I deserve it. So that's what I'm going to do. :) Wish me luck!
