Unspoken♣
Wednesday, September 1, 2010 / 12:34 AM
I feel like I owe it to my blog and its readers to whip up a quick post about something. But I'm not quite sure what. So let's just see.. short paragraphs to people that won't be named? Okay! :)
Dear #1,
I really wish I could do something and take everything that's upsetting you out of this world, and never let it return. It's horrible knowing you are the way you are right now, and that I can't seem to find a single thing to do about it but make you feel worse. You're now one of the reasons I choose to stay strong, and I broke that act today as well. I'm really sorry..
But please, don't feel like you have to be the strong one for me now. I'll sit a little higher and be your shoulder to lean on when something's wrong. Any smile I manage to give you while you're with me, I hope it lasts til the next time we meet so I can give you another one. For me, don't let it fade. It's never too late to start over and it surely isn't too late right now. It'll take time to change, but time is all that we have so please don't stress.
You're an amazing person and you mean so much to me. Please don't be like this, it really does pain me..
Dear #2,
You're someone I don't understand. You say you're the strong one and you want everyone to depend on you when they need someone, but really.. you're the one that needs someone in your life more than any other. It's not good to let your problems build up and never let them out to anyone, it's a massive loss of pride when you eventually start to crack.
So to you, I hope you take things easy from now on and just be yourself even if that self is weak in your eyes. Because your friends are there for you anytime you need them, just like you were for them. Don't worry about what other people say, they don't know you. Their opinion doesn't matter. Just try your best to walk out of the house everyday, smiling for the good things in life. That person and the great friends you have, kay?
Dear #3,
/sigh* I hate how people treat you. I hate that no one can cut you some slack and take things so far. Life seems to be so unbalanced for you because you're happiness never lasts for long.. Someone always manages to rip it right out of you.
But maybe this is a sign for you to become stronger as a person. Don't give two shits about what people think about you. They don't know anything. Their opinions and actions shouldn't concern you, because they shouldn't exist in your eyes. You have so much potential to live up to but all these things are blinding you from the dreams you once had.
There's always sunshine and rainbows after every rainfall. It's true, it's a cycle but that doesn't mean you shouldn't care about the brighter side because the gloominess will always come back. You should anticipate it and appreciate it while it lasts, that's what you should work for. Don't let anyone get in your way.
Dear #4,
You're a reserved person, I understand that's how you are and there's just no changing you. I'm not going to force you in any way either. I can only hope that you know I will be there when you finally want to have a chat about it, kay? I definitely won't turn you down and will drop whatever I'm doing to listen to you. : )
Hey, I may not be able to give you the best advice, or any for that matter.. but sometimes, all you need is someone to listen right? You don't want or need them to tell you your options and their opinions and what choice you should make, you just need someone to be there to witness you making the decision so that when it comes down to it.. you won't give up because you feel the need to live up to your word and prove to someone you did it. Not just erase the decision in your mind and pretend nothing ever happened.
Really, I'm here for ya buddy! Anytime of day or night.
Dear #5,
Ahh, there's a lot I could and want to say about you.. but at the same time I don't. Because at the same time I want to be there for you and share your pain, but I don't. I want to be there for you, being the person that knows you best and at the same time, I don't. I can't. Not anymore.
Seeing you miserable brings me pain that no one will ever know. No one needs to know, not even you. Time apart is all I can give us and that's what I'm gonna do, because let's face it.. It's something we need. Let's not put it off anymore. It's for the best, okay?
Wow, that was a load off my mind and it's nice being able to let it out. It'd be even better if I could say it to those people but this will do for now. I'm in no condition to be able to talk to anyone or be bothered really. Yeah, I'm at one of those points in my life where I don't care anymore.. And for the times I do care, I don't want to. I just want a break from everything.
The best getaway I have now is when I'm with him, and I'm going to get as much of that as possible without disrupting any other aspects of life. : )
