You got me burnin' up♣
Tuesday, March 15, 2011 / 1:10 AM
Shit's fucked.
Not really, some aspects of life are going pretty well for me at the moment and others, not so much. Actually, they're going nowhere. But being the me I am, I'd rather focus on the good things in life. Right now? The best thing in my life is Nam Nguyen.
Recently I've had a miserable 2 days away from my bubby because he wanted me to think. No, we didn't break up, and it wasn't a break. It wasn't even a 'time out' or 'time away' or anything, we simply just didn't speak. What did I have to think about? He wanted me to think about everything n my life and if I really wanted to be with him, if he was what I really wanted. I thought about school, career, family, friends & love. I made plans for the first four and listed 3 goals for each, I thought about myself going through all of it twice. Once with him by my side and once more without, as hard as it was to see myself without him. It was planned that I didn't speak to him since that phone conversation that late Monday night/early Tuesday morning til Thursday 6pm, which didn't last.
I spent the two days being miserable as fuck not being about to see or speak to him, but also spent a lot of time reflecting on myself and I really need to thank him for that because it was something that was long overdue. And without him, it would've never happened but I was finally able to get back on track with my life and head towards what I wanted. It didn't take long for me to think about it though, pretty much just a day and another day to make sure of it.
Called him on Wednesday night and told him I wanted to stay with him and I was never going to leave. Glad I made that choice. (:
When I look back at the past 2 months we've been seeing each other it's actually ridiculous how fast we fell in love and how incredibly deep. It may sound stupid to a lot of people and unbelievable but it's all true. I've honestly never felt this way about someone and been able to go as far as seeing myself with that someone for the rest of my life, and never would have thought I'd meet a someone who felt this exact same way. We aren't perfect whatsoever and yes we do have plenty of disagreements, I wouldn't go as far as calling them as arguments because we can't be angry at each other for more than a couple of hours. But they're always resolved as soon as we've both cooled down and realised that we'd rather be happy together than disagree over something stupid. Spending my weekends with him, our friends and his family is always the highlight of my week and something I look forward to during my week.
I have a lot to say about this fat boy but I'll keep it to myself and between me & him for now, I'm sure you've all read enough of it now.. heh.
