I'd raise my white flag, I'd raise it for you.♣
Tuesday, April 12, 2011 / 1:15 AM
I haven't blogged in .. ages. I feel bad, but I really don't know what to write about. So, I'm just going to gank the survey's off Gamen's blog! :D Rawrrawrrawr.
1) Go to iTunes and list your top 25 played songs.
iTunes is connected with Nam's phone so my play counts aren't on there, and neither am I at home much listening to music for it to keep a record off so I'll just use my phone. :)
Far East Movement - Don't Look Now (ft. Keri Hilson)
Far East Movement - So What
Far East Movement - White Flag (ft. Kayla Kai)
Far East Movement - Like A G6
Far East Movement - If I Was You (Omg) (ft. Snoop Dogg)
Far East Movement - Rocketeer (ft. Ryan Tedder)
Far East Movement - She Owns the Night (ft. Mohombi)
Far East Movement - Fighting For Air
Bruno Mars - Fire
Neyo - Over My Head
Rod Michael - Knight In Shining Armor
Dr Dre - Kush (ft. Snoop Dogg & Akon)
Nicki Minaj - Moment 4 Life (ft. Drake)
RL (of Next) - 4Eva
Varsity - Domino
Drew (of Varsity) - Like I Always Do
Jagged Edge - Let's Get Married (ft. J.D. & Run DMC)
Keri Hilson - Knock You Down (ft. Kanye West & Neyo)
Usher - Hey Daddy (Daddy's Home)
Neyo - One In A Million (ft. Jermaine Dupri)
Jessica Mauboy - Saturday Night (ft. Ludacris)
New Kids On The Block - Single (ft. Neyo)
David Guetta - Who's That Chick (ft. Rihanna)
Gucci Mane - Spotlight (ft. Usher)
Thai, J.Reyez, IZ, Lil Crazed & Tommy C - Girlfriend
2) Something you are scared of admitting.
While I'm writing this I have Vanessa with me, and considering she knows everything about me because I've told her things I've never told anyone else.. I asked her what she thinks I'm most scared of admitting and her first & only response was that I'm scared of admitting she's Jesus cause she can walk on water.. (quote Traphik).
Honestly, there's nothing I'm scared of admitting so I don't know what to say for this.
3) Write about TRUST. Do you trust too easily? Do others trust you? What do you do if someone breaks yours?
Trust is the foundation of any relationship; whether it be between friends or lovers. Family I see as an exception. Trust is a delicate thing and the amount of trust someone can give & have varies from one to another depending on their natural selves and the experiences they go through.
I've been told by many people that I have too much of it and I trust too many of the wrong people way too easily. I don't know why I do it considering I've been hurt by the consequences time & time over again. But that's just how I am. When I meet someone, I don't make them earn my trust, it's just there for them the moment the friendship begins and even when they break it, it'll always come back just as strong.
Others trusting me? I guess they do because quite a few people confide in their problems with me and come to me for advice. It's nice to know that people do trust me but if they don't then I'm not fussed.
Like I said before, if someone were to break my trust I would be upset and try not to trust that person as much. But the amount of trust I had in them will always stay the same and no matter how low it sunk after they broke it, I know it'll go back to the same level it was in the beginning.
4) Describe what you wore today.
Black & grey.
Black 'no fcukin' worries' top, dark grey jeggings, black heel-less boots, black trench coat & grey scarf. :)
Typical winter outfit and that's what I adore about winter (apart from the days&nights meant for snuggling up); the fashion.
5) Post your favourite quote.
I have way too many quotes that I like to only post one, and there are none of them that stick out to be my favourite either. I'll tell you one of my favourite people to quote though! Lady Gaga, she's so amazing.
This isn't really a quote but it's been one of the things I've been quoting a lot lately from Kevin Hart's stand up comedy acts.
"I took a deep breath, I looked at my friends.. I was like IT'S ABOUT TO GO DOWN.
Well, my mum told me to tell you
To mind your own DAMN MOTHERFUCKING BUSINESS BITCH.
LITTLE STUPID BITCH.
LITTLE DUMB TEACHING BITCH.
TWO PLUS TWO NOT KNOWING WHAT THE FUCK IT IS BITCH.
CROSS-EYED CRYING DOWN YOUR BACK FAT FURRY ASS BITCH!
LONG TITTIED NO NIPPLED HAVING ASS BITCH!
The shit that was crazy that my friends was running in the background like
OOOOOOOOOOOOH, HE SAID SHE AIN'T HAVE NO NIPPLES!"
.. I actual cried from laughter while writing this.
6) Most cherished memory.
I don't really have one to be honest. Vanessa says it's the day I met her though, /shrugs*.
No actually, now that I think about think about it the first vivid memory that pops into mind is that night I went fishing with Nam, Arng & Vanessa. Arng & Vanessa were chilling and Nam stood up and hugged me and before I knew it our feet were moving in unison. I heard Arng say, "look at you guys slow dancing and shit, that's cute," which was when I realised we were actually doing it so I turned on "I'd Do Anything" by Azn Dreamers which suit the mood completely and we kept going til the song ended. It's memorable for the fact that it was my first dance, it was under the starry moonlit sky and next to the water. :')
7) A letter to anyone that you are scared of saying to their face.
I'm not scared of saying anything to anyone, but these things I want to say.. I just can't anymore because I won't get the opportunity to. So I guess I'll write it out now in hope that they may come across it.
#1; You were always scared of me replacing you and every other person I got close to threatened you and you were scared, especially a member of your own family. Keeping that in mind and knowing how it felt myself, I told you that I never would and til this day I never have. That spot in my life will always be yours despite the fact we may not speak anymore or have anything to do with each other. I miss you dearly and I cry when I think about how things are different now. But like I've said to you, I'll always be here and all you need to do is talk to me.
#2; I don't even know what went wrong between us. Well, I guess I have an idea but I wouldn't have a clue whether it's true or not considering you avoided explaining it to me. You were such a close friend to me and I put my complete trust in you when I swore to myself I'd never trust another soul. And things were good. We'd spend time together and we made each other happy. I told a friend I thought you liked me and you confronted me about it and you said it wasn't true, that you didn't and I shouldn't say it. But that was far from how you acted and that was when I started seeing you as the big brother figure I never had and I loved you that way. Then one day you joked about you having to move away because you had feelings for me which devastated me, and after we resolved that issue things were okay again. Then one day you just told me over the phone you'd only break promises to me and that I should go die. I still miss you so much despite what anyone may say about you.
